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Genre: Music
Date of upload: Premiered May 6, 2022 ^^
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this song reminds me of my mom. I'm 19 now and supporting myself. I live in an apartment with my beautiful girlfriend and we both work small jobs. times are hard and money is tight but I think I'm the happiest I've ever been. my mother has always been a conservative Christian and held us to her conservative Christian standards. I'm an Autistic genderfluid bisexual. we would go to church only to be told hell was coming for us if we even so much as thought a sin. I went to a Christian school all through elementary and high school. my parents divorced when I was seven but my mom and her husband didn't get their own house until my fourteenth birthday. that house was the bane of my existence. at least at my dad's house, I had a bike and sidewalks so I could actually leave. I was never more excited than when I bought myself a car halfway through 17. she was so emotionally distant. you couldn't talk to her without "abusing her with your emotions". all mental illness was demons and you needed to just pray about it. And even still she would say things like "I wish you cared about me" or "maybe one day you'll love me" or things along those lines. when I hear this song I tear up or cry almost every time. I'm mad at her. I'm upset at her. I never want to see her again she took my childhood she didn't care or accept me she was an overall bad person I hope she's....not happy. but the melancholy yet somehow shouty flow of this song gives the feeling that it's not completely true. She's my mother. she was with me my whole life. she did and provided so much for us. she loved me...I think...? she loved me? "I hope you're not happy without me. I hope that it's hard to get out of bed. I hope you get angry without me. I hope you're not happy ever again." I don't know and this song really just makes me want to bawl my eyes out because I still miss her. but I hate her so much. it's probably pathetic but sometimes I think she listens to this same song and thinks about me. whatever I dunno.
sorry i didn't mean for this to be so long i guess i just kinda rambled lol
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(Lyrics)
Looks like you've been doing well
Looks like you've found someone else
How's your family? How ya been?
I'm doing good I guess
Looks like God is on your side
Looks like I've been off your mind
I'll give you one more pretty smile
And wish you all the best
But the truth is
I hope you're not happy without me
I hope that it's hard to get out of bed
I hope you get angry about me
I hope you're not happy ever again
Ever, ever, ever, ever
Ever again
Ever, ever, ever, ever
I still think of sunny days
Lightning flashes on my face
Rain reminds me you were mine
Not so long ago
I want you to know
That the truth is
I hope you're not happy without me
I hope that it's hard to get out of bed
I hope you get angry about me
I hope you're not happy ever again
Ever, ever, ever, ever
Ever again
Ever, ever, ever, ever
Ever again
Ever, ever, ever, ever
Ever again
I hope you're not happy ever again
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@tamiacorea2187
1 year ago
hope you’re not happy releasing almost a year after ashlyn feels like a full circle moment. so proud of you ashe, i love you!
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