@truestblue3455

7 months ago

This song describes so much of how i've been feeling lately.. Kind of torn between "Now is all i have guaranteed, i could die at any moment, and i already have health problems." And "I might as well embrace life right now and also believe in the future, otherwise every day is just another day i once again tell myself there is no tomorrow." As a man of faith, i feel a very specific way about this. The idea of traumatic bonds itself feels somewhat suggestive to the definition of trauma being something that can't be unraveled or overwritten. Also, something i don't like about the English language is how there are many double definitioned words that make sentence structuring feel oxymoronic and dumbed down, and a lot of things people say are untrustworthy, so i am sometimes hesitant to take their words at face value, which makes me feel unintentionally introverted sometimes, but also, reading too deep into things isn't good for the brain. Not obsessing over thoughts is important, even when being able to draw logical conclusions. There are a lot of things you can have justified anger about, valid feelings of discontent and sadness, hating an unfair factor of a situation, and hating someone's fakeness, and standing against the false narrative that they tell theirself, and hating how it feels to be seemingly the only one who "gets it." There are significant things that i've come to terms with that someone else might not ever even think about, and/or would just nod their head with nothing to say if i told them, but it is even more important to pursue personal liberation, rather than trying to teach someone who doesn't want to be taught. I've always been the guy who speaks up, even if just out of sheer discontent about what's wrong, but i like this song, it reminds me to not let someone else negatively affect how i feel about my own liberation. I often hate people without actually hating them. I think people are often uncompassionate idiots who are stubborn and ignorant. I've spent so many years brooding about them, to my own lack of satisfaction about things, but you make me want to reassess where i apply my care tokens, for the best. Thanks.

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