I got Cristine and Crystal mixed up
my nails are dirty cause I just rinsed my hair with no gloves
I wish I would've went to support my cousin who's dad passed, but like .... idk I wish they could have given it another week. And I've always loved my cousin, we just never spoke,hung out I barely saw my uncle's children. all the cousins lead a whole seperate life. at my grannies funeral I didn't recognize his daughter and it's very sad. I love them... they all went to the club without me though 😭😭😭😭 it's fine I didn't have an outfit...

Edit: definitely didn't take two years 😭😭😭😭😭 more like 2 hours 🤍🤍🤍🤍 but seriously I had an anxiety attack realizing so many of my grannies siblings passed away. For a moment it was like everyone was there listening to Outstanding baby .... That was everybody song and it's amazing I listened to it on repeat just like they did

I literally grew up with them always seeing them and I. grateful to have been with them but that ish made me low-key panic about getting older like I know it's apart of life but it's a wound

I was talking to my auntie kk about swimming at this school and she told me about my AUNTIE MARILYN, and how she was the true swimmer of them all. She would go up to the highest diving board, hit about six flips, and backstroke all around 😭😭😭😭 I wish we would have swam together. Auntie Marilyn was my favorite