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All I want is nothing more than a buddy
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I'm not just losing motivation, I'm losing the last attempt and option that I had left; hope. Just pure hope. It didn't bring me to anything, again I'm all alone, all lost, wasting everything of my life from start to end trapped in a horrid cage of hellish pain, and all of that would still be distantly bearable by me if it wasn't that I'm also controlled and in constant danger, aka I'm not free. I'm in the negative, I'm in pure negativity, and I've now exhausted all options at life. I have not a single idea on how to follow a path or go forward in any way, in any case... The only 2 options I see are the worst things you can imagine of and that will only bring me more pain (or if I want to be optimistic, 1 of the 2 will bring me in a better place, but that's just my overly positive dreamer self that dreams of things that never happen, no matter how strong I believe in them.). Therefore
I am now completely cursed, each moment is an agony, and I'm turning more and more into senseless negativity. Now I'm starting to understand that too, senseless, total negativity, regardless of anything, but that's irrelevant, because me understand things, everything, never brought me to any happiness or any life at all. In this place, any worth I have in me is completely wasted, completely useless, and even an excuse for direct abuse.
I really wanted to be a good boy, but I'm starting to wonder that even being good, is useless, and was the wrong choice in such a world. I should've never opted for worth at the cost of loneliness. Although, if I'm being fair, I don't see how I'd ever manage to not be alone and avoided in any case... Since that's been a curse upon me since the very first day I'm on this damned planet.
I doubt that I'll go through those last 2 desperate acts either because I dont have the strength and energy to, and especially to deal with the consequences. I really want to save myself so badly... but how can i. What the hell can i do. I will never know. Nothing. I want to put me out of this utter waste of life, experiences, and happiness, time.... But I don't know how. And if I go through one of these 2 acts, which is the most likely to happen, I will only push myself into even more nothingness, unless good things do happen that I can't be aware of, but again thats the dreamer me talking, because everything I've ever done and tried, even "extreme" things, haven't but brought to the same exact result: loneliness. desolation. nothingness, and abuse.
I'm a good boy, please somebody save me. I have so much to give too, all this life I hold in me.... Oh nobody will save me.
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These are what I cry two at 2 AM
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I done something stupid recently and it’s really something unlike me and Ik I probably hurt some people while doing it but idk y it’s eating me up so much my therapist says I’m a kind person but idk I doubt it I kind person wouldn’t have had believed others so easily or did I ever believe them I just need to get better bc I can’t take it anymore it’s been too hard recently it’s too much I’m not gonna kms or anything but idk if I can keep being me or if I should be bc I suck
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The guy who I thought loved me is the person who makes me feel depressed and worthless
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I lost it along time ago...
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i wish people actually treated me how i treat them
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i love this bc this makes me cry and win i cry its makes my thank abt my ex and i did hate him for what he did to me
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Feeling this so hard
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It’ll all be over soon… right?
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I just wish I would find somone who will love me
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I’m just going to do a fun little rant cause everything is just hitting me so hard again, like a wave crashing down only instead of having time to swim back to the surface I get hit again my another wave, and another. Now I’m drowning and I have no way of getting back to the surface.
People say that it gets better, people say your to young to feel this way, people say your over reacting and you just want attention, people say that you can’t leave this world behind because people here will miss you, people say you aren’t alone, people say so so much and I don’t know if I can believe them anymore. I’ve waited for it to get better, it’s been over 5 years now and everything just keeps get worse. Some might say that it has to get worse before I can get better, but I don’t know how it could get worse and if it did I would most likely jump. I might only be 14 years old but that doesn’t mean anything, there isn’t an age restriction on how old you have to be to be struggling. I don’t think I could be over reacting or doing anything for attention because no one knows, I don’t tell anyone because I don’t want them to be a burden on them, I want them to enjoy life I,l be a side character that you never know the real story of an I’m okay with that. I can count the people I know on my two hands, I can count the people that really care about me on one hand. That won’t be enough of the world to know I’m gone to miss me. Some people they know at least 20 people but I don’t. I’m sure I’m alone in this world, I only have one friend and no best friend, I can’t talk to my family cause they always make everything about themselves. I understand people are going through the same thing as me but I have to meet them yet, and I if I do I will give them the satisfaction of them getting to rant about everything going on in their mind cause that does so so much more than a stupid hug or something like that, or at least for me. I’ve given up on everything that people say, I’m done waiting I just want everything to end. I don’t believe in heaven and hell but I don’t care if I have to live in hell for the rest of eternity cause I’m already here and I’m already going to go there.
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It’s so sad how most of us teenagers go threw stuff like this and even are parents can’t even tell. I’ve been hurting so much these past few months and I’m trying to keep myself clean from cutting and it really hard. But the thing that sucks the most is….. no one seems to notice. The hoodies, the “I’m not hungry’s” the gum and water. I just feel so lonely even in a room with everyone I’m close to.
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Everytime I get yelled at someone and being bullied by someone.....
I get demotivated........(╯︵╰,)💔💔💔
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Insane ❤
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It’s okay we just need one of the time stamp people to come
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My friends, I recommend searching for God or for the Gospel, it really helps you in times like this and although it may not be quick, late or early, he will answer you. I hope that everyone is well and that they continue to have Hope because God is waiting for you to return to Him so that they can find true peace. God bless you all
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the urge to save someone who is lost in despair .... tragic unfulfilling life that we made of it due to our own damn chois=ces we are here for a reason we made it here and we have regrets that part of the depression the sadness its the regrets shame and guilt the traitor of the story the judas the betrayer the one who failed God but God still loves us we don't understand why how where is it coming from how did this start why am I all of a sudden here what happened to me what can I do to get out of this God is helping we are reaching his hand we are some of us are stretching our hand back to the hand who is trying to lift us up we don't understand why is God allowing this its all in the book of rules u sin u are cursed and the payment of sin is death but Jesus gave his life for us why are we here why ... does God hate us? no He doesn't but it feels like it but He doesn't we are just in a mess we are tangled in our own mistakes in our own net. We or some of us are trying to stay afloat trying to make it trying to survive to over come this to defeat this but we cant its hard it feels like ... (sigh) why are we here why cant we just .... God knows why God knows we can make it we don't know it we think we cant we are wanting to let God do everything for us we want God to accept us with our sins but that s not God God is truth He is just Holy and cannot lie and we cannot mock God we are stranded no we are not we are not doomed we do have hope but we feel as if there isn't but there is.... we cannot see the enemy decieves we drown we drown we try send a rope send a float a life saver its Jesus but how can we if the guilt the falling again its our own heart its in our hearts our desires we are undecided between Gods eternal love for us and the sin we cannot let go we want to but we lie to ourselves we then realize we fell in it but then God is still there at the door reaching out please don't give up I get it I get it its not easy God knows even knowing He still loved us and always will but its end times the world is being lead astray we are all in a walk a path a place in our journey what path to take where to go what to do we know we we know you know its in your guts God says it to you u know it stop the sin repent and accept Gods forgiveness fight the sin you can do it through resisting the devil praying seek God harder its in your heart ur desires how bad do u want God over ur sin that the key our hearts decieves us Good luck don't give up don't give in kee going keep trying don't fall away I don't want u to fall away either God wants u even if u prefer the other side God still loves u but He will be waiting for u hopefully u find the way back but if u can go directly choose directly the right path before u
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@mangomusen
9 months ago
All I beg of is a free live where we all get ti be happy ty for this music it helps me cry,smile,sing,think,realise,forget ty ;)
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