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Date of upload: Feb 15, 2017 ^^
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This morning I was sitting in class working on a chemistry test and all of the sudden my brain started thinking about my childhood and I was just like "oh fuck. My childhood is over. All of the things I did as a kid will never happen again. There are people I will probably never see again. I can't even remember what my elementary school best friend looks like anymore. Even my memory is flaking out on me. There are so many things that I will never ever ever be able to experience or recreate in any way. Fuck." And so I just sat there, staring at my computer screen, having a minor crisis is my head, all while I'm supposed to be completing a test.
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Oh God. It would absolutely tear me apart to burn all of my old stuff. I'm such a memory hoarder. I have so many notebooks from my 3-8 grade stuff. (it's mostly like old art and journals). Even old notes from my old friends who I don't talk to anymore.
I just could never see myself throwing it away because it's such a big part of me.
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i actually started crying a bit when you put that box on the fire. that was so strong of you. i honestly don't think i could have done that.
i'm really fuckin sentimental too, stemming from a breakdown i had in high school where i buried all of my journals from age 6-15. biggest regret of my life. i feel like those memories are gone forever - even though i know the ones that really are important will always stick around in my head, it's hard to let go of the little things. letting go and moving on is a legitimate skill, and it gives me hope and makes me proud to see you getting better at it.
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I completely understand how you feel. I went through this when I moved out of my parents house when I was 18. Losing your home is such a unique kind of pain. I remember there was a 2 month time period where I had to go into numb mode. I couldn't think, or feel, or I knew I'd have a mental breakdown. While I knew I was fine, I'd visit a couple times a year, I let myself over think and make it so much worse. I'm going to let you know, the months after are the hardest. You'll feel sadness, and grief, and be so overcome with emotions you'll feel like you could die. Let me tell you, you won't. This sounds cliche but it will get better. It's been a year, and I am completely happy again. That year was the hardest of my life, I felt like I was sleep walking, not really living. You learn that you have multiple homes, which are not necessary buildings. My mom for example, is my home. My first apartment, that I decorated all by myself and sheltered me during the hardest part of my life, is my home. The coffee shop I work at, is my home. The track field, where I spent hours running, is my home. The house, my boyfriend and I rent is our home, where we want to start out lives. Home isn't a single place, its the feelings, and memories associated with something. Home is a feeling of love, and you can feel that anywhere. The feeling isn't buried under the house you left, It follows you, and sometimes falls a little behind, but don't worry, it'll catch up soon. <3
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@bookseatnerds
7 years ago
Your mum is so hilariously unsympathetic but sympathetic at the same time. It just reminds me of my own and makes me so happy!
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