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i think you think too much of me
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Views : 34,896,749
Genre: Music
Date of upload: Aug 18, 2016 ^^
Rating : 4.904 (8,470/346,017 LTDR)
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YouTube Comments - 5,834 Comments
Top Comments of this video!! :3
Man, last time I watched this video was 4 years ago, when I was in active addiction (meth+heroin) crying because I missed my daughter and couldn't believe who I let myself become. Coming back to it now gives me full on body chills. Happy to say that shortly after that I got sober for good, now building a career and have my family back. Feels good, man. Feels really fucking good.
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"Death is not the greatest loss,the greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live"
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Bro the look on his face when hes walking on the street after seeing his paycheck hits so deep. The look of frustration and despair. Being lost with no direction or any idea on how to even begin to resolve your mountain of problems.
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It amazes me that eden can write such songs despite being so young. He was just 19 when he wrote this song. Can you believe it. ?
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How is it possible that EDEN has never made a bad song?
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Man this hits so hard only by watching and listening. Cant imagine what it is like to go through this.
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This song helped me release my pain after losing Micheal Schoepfer. He was a good father, an amazing Marine, and my best friend. He passed on September, of 2019 to a drug overdose. I will never forget this man. We have been on two deployments together, he helped get me on the bird when I was wounded in Afghanistan. There is absolutely no replacement for someone like that. I love you Brother! Semper Fi!
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I guess the hardest part isn't loosing someone you love, it is knowing you will loose them.
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(Edited 9/12/21) After watching this MANY times now I feel like I can join in the fun and explore the meaning behind the video. Not saying this is correct, just my interpretation from the visuals along with the lyrics. The song and video both center around one thing; addiction. People can become addicted to all sorts of things, not just drugs. In this case, he is addicted to his love's smile. You will notice EVERYTHING he does is for one ending goal, to see her smile again. At the beginning of his day he's shown smoking, he seems like he's itching for a fix, worried and stressed to get to it. As he works his mind goes to flashbacks of his favorite times with the girl he loves. He finishes work and is off to get what he needs. He stops at the bar to get a shot. Something known to calm the nerves. Notice how he rotates his wedding ring, another sign that brings us back to where his thoughts are. As he enters this drug den it's obvious he's still "new" to this whole scene. And as he is led back to a room by dealer his mind flashes back again to past happy days. After he is out of there he seems filled with a burst of energy. He's got what he needs and is making his way home. And here is where the real question starts. Are the drugs his, hers, or theirs? I think a few things answer this question. One, when he comes in he literally stops to compose himself before going in her room. He has to be strong for her. If he was high I don't think he would have reacted the same or showed the same emotion. But the REAL clue is when we finally see her in bed. On the bedside table you will notice EMPTY pill bottles. Leading me to believe the drugs are for her. And we see one more thing. We see that smile. And in that both of these addicts have what they need to get through the day. Addiction comes in many forms. Love is one of the best and the worst, all at the same time. This is captured beautifully in this video. LOVE it.
Update! I think the end isn't just about getting her the drugs to feel less pain. I think it's even deeper than that. I think it's him assisting her suicide. The hospital bed at home is something that happens when people are in hospice care. Also know as end of life care. I think she was ready to go. The struggle he faces in the video is thinking about that. And as much as he wants her to stay, he loves her enough to let her go. And that makes it that much more heartbreaking. What do you think? Love to hear your thoughts!
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His expression in the beginning, reminds me of every week being sober for 3 or 4 days broke as fuck. Telling myself never again. Getting that paycheck. Telling myself there's no way I'm going to pick up again, Telling myself I hate dope with every fiber of my being. Heart slowly accelerating. Sweating, as I go to the bank and cash my 300$ check. Head spinning KNOWING I will never spend what little money I have on more fucking dope. Texting my dealer saying I'll take a sack, sitting there on the curb waiting, telling myself it's not real and there's no way I'd ever do more fucking dope, and then having my dealer roll up, and repeating the weekend bender, staying up for 3 days, paranoia. Freaking out. Missing work on Monday like every week. And then crawling through the next 4 days, broke, Telling myself ill never do fucking dope again...... this video reminds me of thst insane cycle, and I can't express how important that is after 7 years sober.
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The story of a man who does everything he can to be good enough, but always feels like nothing. Constant struggle just to keep up and move forward. This hits home way to hard.
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Eden's voice is so unique, I love it so much
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You always say thank you for how us, your fans, have changed your life. But i'm not sure you realize how much you've changed ours. Your music holds me up when i'm falling and there were many days I played your voice on repeat just to stay sane. I know we all feel the same. So for this and everything and everyone I say thank you. I hope one day you can fathom the difference you've made in our lives.
-a fan from the beginning, a fan till the end
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I still hear my favorite song
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dont ask who’s still here in 2020 because we never left
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The feels are strong in this. I teared up a little at the end, not gonna lie.
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Notice how the colour grading before and after he bumps into that dude. Before is an orange ish tint, making it look warm and cosy. Then after he bumps into that man it's made to look cold and sad by the darkish colours. This is a really well thought out video. Just thought I'd share this with anyone who didn't notice :)
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LYRICS:
Cause I had the best of the worst sides
And I had these lungs, oh
And I had too many flash fires
That I just let them burn
'Til my chest is on fire
And my head just won't die
I guess I'm lying 'cause I wanna
I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't
'Cause I just feel so tired
Like it's move or slowly die
You say, you ain't you when you're like this
This ain't you and you know it
But ain't that just the point?
You don't know
How to let go, who said this must be all or nothing?
But I'm still caught below
And I'll never let you know
No, I can't tell you nothing
'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
But still I could always be
Whatever you wanted but not what you needed
Especially when you been needing me
'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
And I'll say what I don't mean
Just 'cause I wanted or maybe I need it
Swear lying's the only rush I need, yeah
'Cause all I needed was some words to say
That all these feelings don't mean shit to me
'Cause it's all just chemicals anyway, anyway, yeah
And I got way too many routes to take to make this all just go away
And find another heart to break, so heartless with these words I say
Just saying what I'm supposed to say 'cause I had nothing for you
I can't love when I can't even love myself
Things I would rather be, thoughts at the back of my head but I'm addicted to hurting
And I got these lungs, yeah
And I spent too many late nights
Just thinking a hole in the earth
'Til the sky is on fire
And my head still won't die
I guess I'm lying 'cause I want to
I guess I'm lying 'cause I don't
'Cause I just feel so tired
Like I need something to come alive
She said, "you ain't you when you're like this
This ain't you, what you done?"
And I said, "That's the point"
And you don't know how to let go
Who said this must be all or nothing?
But I'm still caught below
And I'll never let you know
No I can't tell you nothing
'Cause I'm a fucking mess sometimes
But still, I could always be
Whatever you wanted but not what you needed
Especially when you been needing me
'Cause I'm a fucking mess inside
And I'll say what I don't mean
Just 'cause I wanted or maybe I need it
Swear lying's the only rush I need, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah I need it, I need it, yeah, yeah, yeah
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I see real love in this video
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6 years ago
Nobody talks about the actor. Damn, that is something.
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