So I'm turning 19 in a week and it reminded me how as kids we love our birthdays and are so excited about them and slowly, yearly, as we grow up it's just another day. But to me it's the worst day of the whole year. I hate it because it feels like a celebration of a me who is gone, that little kid. It's funny how the ones celebrating her birthday are also the ones responsible for why i hate being cheerful for my birthday. Anyways, this song is just about persisting through when you have no hope so that you can celebrate your existence again one day in a way that you don't hate., because that little kid is still alive within and deserves to live their best life.

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lyrics:
Can you count the days, count the years that you’ve been waiting for up here?
Staring at the stars above, scared that they’ll never be yours
Do you lose yourself in your dreams, that you’ve had since you were a kid?
Do you wonder if you deserve it? Do you wonder if it’s worth it?

‘Cause i do, life is a game i’m meant to lose
still i choose to risk it all for you
I am you, the one who’s hurt and bruised
still i choose to risk it all for you

Can you even hold yourself at night when your clothes catch all the tears you cry?
Does the little you hold you tight and tell you that it’ll be alright?
Are you scared of living for yourself? Does it feel selfish to live a little?
Always dancing on the rooftop, one step away from the jump and the fall

Do you always wonder why, why you survive all the bad times?
But can’t remember the last time, the last time that you felt alive?