@danica8361

5 years ago

since no one is really gonna read this i'm just gonna take this off my chest bad english ahead btw sorry kiss the rain was my crush fav song (original one) I've spent like 2 months trying to learn to play it on piano because i wanted to make him happy. we haven't talked in 6 months but i didn't gave up on him. i met him online and yes someome may say that "idk if he even exists" but yk what it's not about his looks, i barely remember his face, it was his personality i fell in love with. i miss him like so much it hurts. he taught me lot of stuff and i often come here and listen to this song and cry my soul out remembering times we talked and how i would stay up whole night even if i had school next day. he was amazing and i will never forget him. i remember every text we sent, i still feel the same feelings i did when we first started talking. he was not like other guys, he appreciated small things, he was just a nice soul that wanted to help everyone and i messed up. it was 6 months since we last talked and my heart still hurts when i hear his name and i still cry myself to sleep because i lost him. at one point of my life I'll probably move on, but i know that this shit hurts as hell now. he was the one i could lean on, the one i could tell anything, the one that always made me smile. he was special and he will forever be someone i will never forget and someone who will have special place in my heart. i'm so sad. i don't think i will ever meet someone that could really compare to him and what he taught me. i could see all sorts of people and no matter who they are or what they say they can't capture my attention quite the way he can. i could talk to all sorts of other people yet i always find myself thinking about how they're not quite as charismatic as him, or they don't make me laugh quite as genuinely . it's just something special about him and i cant even explain it. i never skip a night to pray for him to be safe and happy. i truly hope he is happy without me even tho i can't live without him.he broke me but i still love every little thing about him. he did move on, he did found someone new and i'm happy, because thinking about him being happy gives me joy. even tho he doesn't belong to me anymore i still can't move on and i still love him :) edit: well its about a year and a half since we last talked, its still hard and it still hurts but it gets better, i came back to this comment after a year, i came back and still feel broken like before. i feel like im getting over him, i met so much new people and even tho no one feels like him i can say im moving on. im sorry to all the people that went through similar things or even worse, but from personal experience i can say it does get better. i still think about him and im not saying its easy im just saying its worth trying. from time to time i think about writing him a message but i remember hes in the past and not worth it even tho i still cherish every moment we spent together. i hear about him from my other friends, hes happier than ever :) i wish him all the best, still. even tho i dont think ill ever forget him ill keep moving on until i find my own happiness.

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