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Watch PART 2:    â˘Â Discovering I am autistic | Feeling o... Â
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Welcome! I'm Charlie. I spent 30 years creating a life I thought was expected of me. Eventually I burned out, quit my job & discovered I am autistic. Now I am looking forward to creating a new life on my own terms, and sharing it with you through this channel. I hope to simply be me. This is my journey, rewilding.
What is 'rewilding'? I explain in my first video here:    â˘Â Rediscovering myself at 30 years old Â
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
Coming to the realisation that you are neurodiverse is a rollercoaster. It strips away everything you thought you knew while also explaining so many of the struggles you have faced in life.
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Honestly though, if it wasn't for all of the social deficits that come from being traumatized from living in a predominantly neurotypical society as an undiagnosed person w/ ASD, I would think neurodivergence is a gift, maybe even a superpower... I love who I am, my passions, how I view the world, how accepting I am, my perspectives, and the way I think (most of the time), I just wish I didn't feel impostor syndrome in every aspect of my life, I wish I could accept that people really love me, I wish I didn't feel so uncomfortable around my own family, I wish I didn't constantly feel like a background character in my own life, and the anxiety and depression certainly doesn't help. Watching videos like this is the only thing that is helping me deal with this identity crisis I'm going through right now, I don't feel quite so alone. Thank you.
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60 years old here, and just figured it out. It is a relief. Always felt different and didn't know why. Could not figure out why everyday simple things can be so difficult for me to do.
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I cannot put into words how important it was to see you talk about it and show your emotions.
I'm also 30 years old, female and in the process of finding out about my neurodivergence and this is helping a LOT.
Beating myself up for burning out over and over again is something I struggled with most of my life and just like you said - I finally found the reason for being different and I am able to let go of the shame now.
It's a process but it is one of the most important processes of my life I think.
Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. Sending lots of love and acceptance your way.
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I was 40.5 years old when I was diagnosed and assessed to be autistic. My life struggles have been very hard and sometimes traumatic, but now I know I am so much better off. Iâve learned to love myself and embraced who I am. If others donât like me for who I am or what I do itâs their problem, and I wonât given them the time off day because I am over being hurt by toxic people. Most importantly I know that I am a good person, I might be different, in the way my brain is wired but I am not less. It took me far too long to figure this out I only wish I would have know sooner.
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I totally relate to this. Thank you for sharing.
I have just started my journey as a 34 year old man. I have recently been diagnosed with innatentive ADHD which has led me to realise I have so many autistic traits as well. I have struggled so much through life with mental health issues and social connection. I am slowly discovering I've been masking my whole life and have no real sense of who I am.
This is all so daunting but finding people like you has really helped me feel less alone. Here's to the journey!
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Hi Charlie. I'm glad I stumbled upon this video. Finding others like me makes me feel like part of a community and of belonging somewhere.
I realized a year ago that I was autistic and was formally diagnosed four months ago at age 48. I was diagnosed with ADHD at the same time. I'm still figuring out how my brain works, what I need in order to be healthy and whole, and what my authentic self looks like after decades of masking.
The best thing that has come out of this journey so far is that I am becoming kinder to myself. I have more compassion for myself. I try to give myself grace. I hope that is happening for you, too. â¤
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I'm 41, almost 42, and I'm right now where you were in this video. Thank you so much for sharing, and it does help me feel not quite so alone!
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Hi Charlie! It feels very good to se other new YouTubers who talks about being Autistic! I recently started my channel and we are going through a similar journey. I discovered I'm Autistic at 37 and I felt a desire to share my story so I just followed my intuition and it's scary! I'm looking forward to hearing more about your life!
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I just got my official diagnosis today. The way you are telling your story feels like I would say it. I'll watch the rest of these just so I can see that I am not alone in this. Not alone in being diagnosed at 31.
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I am 57 and was just officially diagnosed. When I was young I knew there was something wrong with me and felt alone in my search for what it was. Unfortunately, a family member told me I was a hypochondriac, which is when I learned how to mask. Now that I understand what was different. (Not wrong.) I have started rethinking my life and am now beginning to understand my life experiences in the reference of autism.
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Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. Every word you said. This has been my journey for the past 3 months, and I'm currently in the middle of my professional assessment. ALL the same thoughts and feelings, the identity crisis, the imposter syndrome, the wondering, "How did we miss this all these years???" All my life I just thought I was crap at life, and a bad person. Never able to maintain healthy relationships and always feeling baffled by people - like an alien without a guide book. Thoughts I'm having include: "What now?" What is my life going to look like for me going forward? I can't do a lot of things I used to do now that the mask has been ripped off (following an autistic burnout). Sensory overload leads to massive anxiety in public, even with family and friends, trying to do work, or even basic life admin, cooking, cleaning...everything is overwhelming. And it has felt incredibly lonely. the title of your video got my attention because these are the EXACT words I used recently when trying to describe how I feel: different, lonely and lost. Sharing your journey is so generous, and I'm so grateful for it. Please continue, I'll be listening. xxx
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I just want to honor your strength here for a moment. To share this video, when you are at a low point and incredibly vulnerable is beyond courageous. Our son was diagnosed at 8 years old, and for a while as a teenager he was angry with us for telling him, but I couldn't let him go through his teenage years not understanding why he is so amazing at some things, and why he struggles at others.
Thank you so much for your willingness to share this message, because all of us need to be better at understanding ourselves, whatever our level of neurodivergence is.
Looking forward to more of your work. I think you are going to be amazing.
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Thank you so much for this video. Two weeks ago my wife suggested to me that I may be autistic. Aged 49 I am now about to take the assessment and learn more about why I have seen the world so differently for so long, much to the frustration of myself and those who love me.
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I feel like the best part of being on the spectrum is the ability to become completely into a hoppy or subject. We can Excell far beyond a lot of people because we are so driven to learn about specific things. My house may be disorganized, and I may have a crippling meltdown after a day at work. I may not be able to have normal conversations, but I do have horses, and am an incredible artist. Also enjoy geology and rock hounding immensely. My life is a lot more satisfying in many ways than the average person đ
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This is exactly exactly how I feel. I was formally diagnosed 5 months ago at the age of 25. The emotional rollercoaster it has been is something I could have never imagined. It feels good to discover why you've been different your whole life. And it's a beautiful thing to discover your traits and become mindful of your autism. It's been a tough process educating people and disclosing my ASD to say the least. Definitely been alienated and discouraged. But all in all our autism is a superpower. Thank you for sharing your journey. It makes me feel a little less alone <3
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I just turned 46 years old and due to struggling through the worst âdepressionâ of my life, have come to the same conclusion. I too have always felt just like you, like an alien that didnât belong. I am at the very beginning of this journey with this possibility and because I have been in what I now know is âautistic burnout or regressionâ for almost 2 years it is even more difficult. Thank you for sharing, you are so not alone. Sending love â¤ď¸
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Thank you for sharing. I was diagnosed last week at 32 and i feel very alone (although i have a loving and supportive husband)
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I have just been referred for assessment at 43. I'm so glad I have found your channel, Charlie. Having someone who I can relate to is so reassuring.
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I have nothing to add this week other than that I am sending SO much love to those of you also going through this process of self-discovery â¤â¤â¤ If you feel comfortable, perhaps you could introduce yourself in the comments and share a bit about your experience too... I think it would be wonderful to see a comment section full of people supporting each other in unchartered waters 𼲠Charlie xxx
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