@CarpeCopley

4 months ago

I am 15 years old and I vividly remember watching this movie at my grandma's house when I didn't have a place to live with my parents and knowing this movie and song are 12 years old now, it makes me so sad and happy at the same time, every time I hear the chorus of the song I feel every stage of every emotion I have ever felt and this movie digs so deep in my mind and is so big to me because of the fact that the only thing that keeps my life only slightly not miserable is when I listen to the songs or watch the movie because I disregard everything else in my life and I feel comforted and feel like I actually belong with them and not with everyone else in the world. Rio makes me feel such drastic and intense emotions and it's like my whole being and personality changed every time anything sort of reminds me of it, I don't feel like myself and it makes me so comforted but so angry and sad at the same time. I genuinely cannot describe it without sounding completely mentally insane, but when I feel like I have no connection with Rio or am not thinking about it, I feel uncomfortable and feel like somebody I am not. If you read this far than I feel that you may be able to slightly comprehend what I feel? I feel like my life without it is so dark and everything about Rio is so beautiful and happy, typing this right now I'm on the brink of tears, I don't understand why emotionally I feel so immensely strong about this and it's been a core memory and such a centered part of my life and the emotions build up so much and I have no way to let it out and it makes me very depressed and nobody understands it and nobody could possibly know exactly how it feels. I wouldn't wish such a bad emotional and mental state on my worst enemy or even Satan himself, I feel like nobody should ever have to experience this and I think it is too late for myself mentally and I just don't have a way to stop my thoughts and emotions. Rio comes into contact with my heart so much that even after typing this I haven't stressed enough even close to what I feel every time I hear the songs or watch the movie, or even think about Rio at all.

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