@MikeLang1313

2 months ago

I walked away from God about 10 years ago. Since I have been walking through a desert. At first I saw the sunshine and good weather. (The devils painting) Heck, he is a fallen angel. No one said he isn't good at what he does. (The devils greatest trick is to convince the world he doesn't exist.) I felt I was in control, and it was up to me to have a good life. To an extent is true, but I was blinded. Trust me, I worked as hard as humanly possible to make that happen. For several years, I felt a strength in it being up to me to make my life great. The past few years, though, I have felt like the guy in the movies, chapped lips, disheveled, desperate, and on the brink of deaths door. Yet I truly believed it was up to me. If I only worked harder, if I only did more, it would all get better. I have felt so lost lately, even with life going well, I just felt like it was all falling apart, and I didn't know what way to go. In the last few months, my God has been showing himself to me, almost like a shadow, more like a mirage, too good to be true. At first, I knew I was too smart for that. I knew it was just that, a mirage. When I was on the brink of giving up out in that desert, it's like I started to see wet sand. Then, a very small trickle of a stream in a vast desert. I followed the stream, but only because I didn't know what other way to go. It had to be my mind playing tricks on me. But then the stream got larger, so I took a drink, and it nourished me. But still, I didn't want to believe. Then today I heard a song out of the blue and it was like I was hit by a waterfall, a waterfall of fresh cool water. I was revived. I knew immediately what it was. It was my God. It was the Lord of Lords embracing me back into his arms. Without judgment, without criticism, without any questions. My God, who never left me, was there. He had always been there. I just finally looked for him. It tore me in 2. I broke down with enough tears to create my own waterfall. I didn't expect it, I didn't even understand. It was a song. It's a song I heard from nowhere. Through my never-ending scrolling through YouTube, a song came across me. It blew me away. I never knew a song like this even existed. It's amazing. And it saved me. I believe in tradition, but worship can come in all kinds of ways. It may not be for everyone, but this to me hits the way I needed it to. Amazing song and songs from this artist and others like him. Glory to God! I haven't felt like this in a long time. Thank you, Hulvey and Forrest Frank. Thank you, Heavenly Father, Lord of Lords, My God! Wash away my shame!

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