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The thing with death, though, is that a footprint of your life would still be left behind. Loved ones that would mourn your loss, embarrassing moments that people would still remember. But thereâs a third option thatâs not temporal like sleep, and doesnât leave hurt behind like death. If youâre watching this video right now, chances are youâve flirted with this third option; youâve had the desire to not exist. What exactly is this feeling? How does it differ from death? And what can it teach us about life?
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
The fact that being born is not a choice is so depressing
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No matter how's the day going, the best part is going to bed and the worst is waking up
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I'd be curious to see a poll about how much of the world's population would honestly prefer not to exist.
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"I don't want to die. I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all."
Freddie Mercury
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"To bear children into this world is like carrying wood to a burning house."
-Peter Wessel Zapffe
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A big issue for me is, I never asked to be born.
I never wanted to be born, I never wanted to exist, yet I was thrown into this world, a family with a lot of struggles. But no one can choose their parents.
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We go to the void and come from it. Desire to not exist is just nostalgia.
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I had memory loss from a head injury when I was 15, maybe a week and a half completely erased. Yet, somehow, when my memory returned I was aware that time had passed and could almost feel that my consciousness had taken a rest, it was turned off. I think this is closest Iâll get to not existing, and Iâll admit it was quite peaceful. I felt like my soul had rested somehow.
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I often have the desire to sleep because then you have the feeling of not existing or no active thinking which is pleasing.
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I'm suicidal, but I also fantasize about never having existed at all. Thank you for making this video.
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"And I declared that the dead,
who had already died,
are happier than the living,
who are still alive.
But better than both
is the one who has never been born,
who has not seen the evil
that is done under the sun."
-Bible
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Iâm too compassionate to bring another life into this world. I work, struggle, and endure for a living; doesnât mean I have to bring a new life to do the same.
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I lost my 13-year-old daughter to suicide six months ago. As a form of self-therapy and means to try and help other people, I've been creating videos in which I explore nature and narrate my journey with grief. Content like this is also tremendously helpful. Thank you for taking the time to share this with the world.
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I have never found a reason for ânot wanting to existâ. Even when Iâm happy, I still wish I didnât exist. I donât want to die, that would be the end of my life. I just simply wish to not have been born.
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Existing is Exhausting.
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not existing is something Iâve been thinking about for a while now.
in my life Iâve always felt like a side character, and that I was never enough. the thought of all that pain & suffering, the embarrassment, and all your responsibilityâs never existing sounds peaceful. but on the other hand, all that youâve worked for, all of your fond memories with friends & loved ones would be erased from your memory too.
Iâm pretty sure most teenagers my age would agree that they have felt some way about this feeling, but never told anyone because then theyâd get labeled as suicidal.
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The worst part about life is its not consensual
Ur forced into life and then forced to live by the rules of others with no freedom to do what you want unrestricted
Other people created you
Other people rule you
Sometimes I wish I could just take a break from life just rip my soul from my body or just teleport somewhere else
Constantly questioning why this place
I ask why we exist but we never asked to exist we were forced to exist by our parents who created us
They never asked if we wanted to exist they also canât ask either but if we made the choice to not exist why is that seen as bad
Weâre forced to live literally and by also not being allowed to die
You created me without my consent but I canât die without yours
Why do you have say in my existence and whether or not I can or canât end it
Why are we forced to live and why is it seen as bad to want to end a life you never wanted
Itâs my life not yours but the truth is it isnât my life cuz my life exists because of somebody else
Whatever pain death would bring others is forced they wouldnât even feel pain if they or I or both never existed
Especially when people have kids on accident
You didnât plan and or want kids and now they are forced to not only live but also live with the fact they basically never were supposed to exist
Life quite literally isnât fair
But at least death is
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There was a few years in my childhood where I was genuinely mad at my mom for giving birth to me in our broken family, poverty stricken life, but I got over it eventually.
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honestly I don't even like sleeping anymore because I know I'll wake up and I have no idea whether or not I'll feel more miserable and tired than the time I fell asleep or feel somewhat better
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