@lightning5054

3 years ago

I had a semi-close friendship with this girl who I secretly had a huge crush on, but...... I knew nothing would ever happen between us, but nevertheless, I continued being friends with her because though I knew she would never see me as anything but a friend, being around her made my entire world glow, similar to the rose-tinted glasses we look through when we reminisce about childhood memories. As time passed we grew closer and closer and my obsession grew and grew, to the point where I was doing everything in my power to be around her as much as possible, I remember a time she and I had to walk somewhere, and instead of taking the usual route, I insisted we take a "shortcut" which in reality was a much longer route just so I can spend more time walking and bonding with her, in my eyes I was being downright creepy in doing things like this, but she never commented on it so I continued. The breaking point though happened on January 26th, me and her had recently discovered our music tastes were really similar, so we were just sharing music that we liked and just texting as we usually did, then, this song came up on the playlist of her songs, and I don't know what this song did to me, but we were on the topic of romantic interest, so with the song at 2:51 and the climax hitting, I went for it, I said screw it, even if she said no at least I got my feelings out there, but then, the breaking point happened, the point where this idea that she would never like me back and that I was creepy and that her feelings for me were non-existent broke, no, shattered right in front of my eyes. She said yes, and not only did she share my feelings of love, she also shared my previous feelings of doubt that this moment would ever come. I know this feeling of perfectness and absolute bliss won't last forever, it's been over 5 months and I don't signs of it stopping anytime soon. I wanted to share my story, one because I'm absolutely emotionally bonded with this song, and two, to tell everyone to try to look past the ideas in your head that a relationship between you and someone will never happen, I am extremely grateful for my partner and I'm not sure I would have ever gone for it if it wasn't for the rush of adrenaline from the climax of this song, I got lucky, but you may never experience the perfect timing I did on that day, so if someone is just stuck in your brain and won't leave, go for it, sure there's a chance your right, that they don't share your feelings, but, it is as likely of a chance that they feel the exact same way as you do and are being held back by the same doubts and insecurities that you are, an almost everlasting feeling of bliss and belonging may just pass you by if you don't act, worst-case scenario things are awkward for a bit, best case scenario you find someone who is absolutely perfect for you. Go for it, before it's too late, and thank you Goth Babe for giving me the courage to let myself be happy

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