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Lyrics/Subtitles:
one time i just got some wild stuff
that i think was lace and then ever
since i haven't felt the fuckin same
Ever since then I felt like I'm not actually living my life I'm just watching it happen
I spend my nights on overdrive
I was like curled up I was like call my f**kin mom or something
I live my life so overtired And there's nowhere I can hide
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Genre: Music
Date of upload: Nov 15, 2023 ^^
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Top Comments of this video!! :3
I Love how he still talks about life as if he's still living it like the rest of us. Most artists are talking about how they can buy and spit you out, expensive bags, clothes, and mansions. Post is about his life, problems and all, his mom, and his fans. NOW THAT'S KEEPING IT REAL AND HUMBLEšÆšÆšÆā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
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You have to command your consciousness to come back into the body. It will only refuse if you still feel being in the body is unsafe. Then process what you feel in the body by focusing in on it, without judgment. Deep breaths. Loving or at least accepting what comes up. In processing, it will eventually pass.
Been there. Healed it. If i can, you can. You got this
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Same here, I've been watching my life for years now.
I regret doing drugs, I haven't felt real in over a decade...
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Felt like that before, not living my life just watching it happen. That's definitely deep.
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I had derealization/dissociation for almost 2 years. It was from chronic anxiety and heavy weed usage. Scariest shit Iāve been through in my life. You feel like youāll never be the same. Like youāre watching yourself go through life. Was difficult having conversations, remembering things, emotions were confusion. Some days I still feel that way but most of all I feel about 98%. I think the gym really helped me get out of it. Anyone whoās feeling like that just do whatever you can to ground yourself: hikes, gym, hanging out with friends, going outside etc. after awhile you will feel better. ā¤ļø
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Same here guys , happened to me the first time in high school after smoking some weed , then it came back a year later during a depression episode that lasted about a year with constant dissociation. Ended up healing myself and didnāt have any dissociation for like 7 years straight and few months ago it came back after some heavy stress and hardships . We still here , itās not easy , wouldnāt wish it on my worst enemy. It feels like Iām disconnected. Stay Strong guys
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Bro finally I found people that feel the same as me, thought I was going crazy for years
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Had a homie have the same shit happen in 10th grade. PCP laced weed. Got sober right after that, struggled through high school, and found God. Relapsed with the weed after we all graduated and split ways a bit. Always talked about the disassociation and nothing feeling real. He took his own life 7 months after graduation. Never saw it coming. Fuck whoever is out there lacing weed with hard drugs. Miss you buddy.
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"Call my Mom" i felt that.
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you know itās bad when someoneās high and says ācall my momā
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Damn yeah I feel that shit it just feels like nothing is real for me and over time idk why but I feel like nothing matters like pain death anything doesn't matter an to cope I always try to stay active hanging out with friends and shit like that bc it feels like it almost puts me in the moment like I can enjoy what going on properly and I feel like shit without someone to talk to on top of so much other shit going on in my life but I jus deal wit it bc it feels like the right thing not to jus give up bc of some stupid issues that I probably won't be able to get rid of instead just living with them
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The fact that Iāll never be able to call my mom when Iām freaking out about anything ever again makes me sick and my heart hurt please donāt take that for granted. Rip mom!
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He's describing Depersonalization/Derealization.
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When this song dropped I couldn't stop playing it. Ive always liked this man's music
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He didnāt get laced. He got depersonalization/derealization. Same has happened to me. It sucks tremendously. Took me 2 years to fully get over it, and even to this day, if I get stressed out, itāll come back for a while.
Wouldnāt wish it on anyone.
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He just described what I have suffered from for a while perfectly. Derealisation. The feeling of just watching yourself doing stuff instead of you actually performing the stuff. Itās hard to describe but itās very hard to life with.
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I met a couple of people that tell me the same thing about mushrooms. They took them had a trip and never came back the same. They say that every once in a while they question if their even living in reality
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if anyone is going through this, please keep swimming, have some fun if you can. Time does heal.
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I had derealization when i was a teen after smoking weed too. Itās a crazy feeling that no psychiatrist of drug can really fix. What helped me was 1. Staying away from drugs 2. Retraining your mind to think normally which i know sounds vague but itās the only way i can describe it. Itās like rehab for your brain, you have to train yourself not to have thoughts like that. It also helps a lot to socialize with good positive people to help snap you out of that dream state youāre in.
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@brezey1822
5 months ago
Dissociation is a hell of struggle. Especially when you end up getting everything you ever wanted in life just to feel like you're watching it on a TV screen instead of experiencing it yourself. It takes everything positive in your life and turns it into a reason to be depressed because you can never comprehend it enough to enjoy it or form emotional conections. It's a mental health problem that I think gets insanely overlooked.
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