@Melanie-ro6pl

2 weeks ago

Yes... it hurts me so bad,, He was such A Devil/Demon to me all throughout the past too,, and he dont even realize it since he only sees - cares about Himself + His own perspective. And then recently,, after 6 years of no contact.... He literally reached out to me,, just to be that same way, nasty,, and hurtful all over again.
Im just so 💔 over it,, even after all this time.... I really thought he would change one day and loved me back,, but i realized the truth now... still Its the absolute worst pain, sadness, hurt,, emotional - mental - psychological suffering ive ever felt and endured in my entire life foreal. I just cannot take it anymore. Ill never understand why/what I did to be "rewarded" with this treatment either,, or why he did me this way....when all i ever did was try to love Him. I love Him so much and believed in this Fantasy versuon of Him that i desired amd wanted so bad for myself,.... Lesson learned tho. He dont gaf about anything,, and Cant even Apologize to me as well,, the Audacity, disrespect and taken Me and my love for Granted is unbelievable,, the word betrayal is an understatement at this point....its all so beyond disgraceful/disgusting/ unfair to me. I refuse to tolerate Him or this bs💩 either,, i took my power back. I never deserved any of this,, which is the most hurtful,, confusing and wicked part. So I was literally forced to release and let Him go in love. Im Trying to Heal and rise above it. But also forgive/be gentle with myself,, and the rage/hatred I have within for Myself ... for ever even putting up with this Nightmare for so many Years of My Life,, is something I really struggle with too... Love should never feel this way,, or hurt yu this badly,, nor deceive/disrespect/take you for granted,, take my kindness amd my Love for "weakness".....ill never let anybody make me feel this way,, or bring me down that low ever again tho. I was really expecting - hoping for a different, transformed/better version of Him.... but i dont see that,, and its unacceptable to me. So i give up. Im done and releasing All things/people/ways/thoughts that no longer Love, serve, bring me Happiness, Peace amd what i fully deserve.
Please can yall pray for Me tho?? I really need prayers and healing right now.... My Heart/Soul feels - weighs so heavy lately, trying to overcome all this.. i would very much appreciate it. Thank yu and bless yu al

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