@Chansjawline

7 months ago

Im 17 right now and ive always been on the skinnier side, when i turned 11 tho because of some reasons (which i do not remember since my brain literally blocks every single traumatic thing that happened to me) i started getting a eating disorder, i refused to eat food and it was really bad, my whole family was extremely worried and i would have fights with them all the time, when i turned 13 the pandemic came to rise and my eating disorder got worse, and then my grandpa died which was a major turning point for me... I loved my grandpa and i was devastated, it was like a switch just turned on in me that what am i doing with myself... Slowly but surely i stopped skipping meals and the hunger episodes that i would go through i was severely underweight at that time now 4 years later ive worked hard on myself and my confidence and worked on my mental heath, physical health and spiritual health, im still skinny but now im on an average weight for my body and ive gotten rid of my severe anxiety and panic attacks... It took me so much time to realise i have a problem and accept it, my sisters helped me and so did my family and friends (they werent really fully aware of what was going on with me still arent but i love all of them) and i freaking love myself, ive accepted myself and i am working on growing myself even more... Im a baby but ive been so hard ok myself since i was like 11, so im just gonna study and beat myself up on my grades from now on... Thankyou for listening to my rant bye bye

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