@Luccmoosee

1 week ago

I’m losing friends, family and pets daily. I can tell I’m growing distant from everybody, I don’t text old friends I was close to anymore, I just stopped. I stopped caring, I talk less, I have to be a whole different person at school. I spend less time with my family, and more time locking myself away in my room with my cat. My grades are dropping drastically, I feel like a disappointment to my family. It feels like it’s just me and that cat against the world now. I’ve been dropped by almost every friend. I watch my life wither away as I spend less time caring for myself and doing what I enjoy. I’ve stopped caring for myself as much, I tell myself I’m horrible, ugly, all that. I’m mean to myself. I’ve began to become cold to people I still really do care about. Just under about 6 months ago, I’d be playing outside, talking and laughing with my family and friends, caring for my livestock, running around, being me, and my old bubbly self. Now I’m quiet, cold, rude, and I try to be invisible as possible. I stay quiet, when someone tries talking to me I snap, I get into fights, I’ve blocked over half my contact list by now, I’m different. Ive changed so much. Beginning in 2023, I lost 47+ poultry 20+ over varied livestock, my grandfather and grandmother, my cousin, my childhood dog of 17 years, my cat, nearly my other grandmother, and much more in just under 2 years.

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