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Kudos to her for recognizing that grief AND it's source at such a young age. Even more praise of having grown enough to freely talk about it. Much love
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THANK YOU!! I lost my 16yr old Son in 2009 and I still havenāt really dealt with it. My mum, my best friend, passed 6 weeks ago and Iāve only cried twice, both times were a reaction to my Dad being upset. I internalised my grief so much after my son that the trauma caused fibromyalgia. 6 weeks after my mum I am really poorly with sinus, ear and chest infections. It seems I suffer with physical grief because my mind isnāt ready to deal with the reality just yet. Hearing you talk about this is so validating, so thank you xx
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Right. Disassociation is necessary when the emotional pain is too much to process in real-time. While that moment must have been overwhelming and scary, I'm glad you were able to give your body that release and I hope you're at an okay place (or at least more so in an okay place) with processing such a deep loss. Love the show, keep it up.
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Girl, same. Although my parents are very much alive, my mother chose not to be present my Jr year. Walking the stage and not seeing your person in the crowd is absolutely heartbreaking. Your dad is proud of you. ā¤
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Yeah, I'm still waiting to be safe enough to grieve my dad who died when I was 13.
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Feeling this. To this day I still have to fight back tears when someone shares their stories with me because I grew up in a home where there was a recurring awkward silence. It just makes me simultaneously so happy and sad to be spoken to as an equal, with respect and dignity, by people who I might not even know, when my own family would never. Ten years ago I was terrified of having kids because I was afraid that I would treat them the way that I was treated, and now I'm afraid that I would talk to them too much and throw high-fives and scoop 'em up and give them piggybacks everywhere until they were emo teens, help them with their homework as my own desired hobby, tell them all I know about the world and people and... I understand how peoples' kids become their everything *and I understand why that is necessary.
*edit.
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Literally same thing happened to me but related to my grandma who played a huge role in raising me. Suddenly I turned 18 and I would cry about her all the time and began thinking of her everyday.
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I still feel like shit every time I remember that I didnāt cry at my moms funeral when I was 10
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my brain does this with everything at this point. i only just started feeling disappointed/frustrated about a missed opportunity from months ago last week. i was super excited about it, and through no fault of my own, it couldnāt happen anymore. i donāt want to say what it was, because it was some ridiculously small day long event, but it turns out iām actually quite sad to have missed out on it. i assume itās because of the years of constantly being let down by family and then systems that should have supported me that i just fail to process it at this point. iām not even 20. hereās hoping it goes up from here.
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I havenāt seen my dad for over 17 years, (Iām 21). I never cried or reacted or really thought anything of it. Occasionally iād have bursts of realizing how lonely i was - breaking down. I still do, but I still havenāt grieved the loss of having my own fathers love and protection.
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I recently went home after graduating college and I was sitting at the table eating breakfast when tears just came flooding. My parents are both pretty emotionally avoidant so I guess my inner child just took of moment and let it go. Id never cried about it before nor really thought about how they had affected me
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i can relate, my dad died when i was 15 and for an entire year my brain convinced me he was alive and just on some secret mission and would come back. People definitely thought i was crazy, in hindsight im now 25 diagnosed with bp and looking back on that time, it was the only way I could cope.
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I graduated last year in absentia (didnt attend) because my step-dad and grandmother died in 1st and 2nd year. Even though my mum and dad are still alive, it wasnt an achievement for me if everyone who mattered all couldnt see it.
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Please talk about how itās so fucked up falling in love with your best friend and the heartbreak you face when they know about it and sometimes donāt consider how you donāt want to hear about their dates/hookups š¢ (for a friend definitely not me)
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Thank you for sharing
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This is exactly where I am today
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My sister died when my Nephew was 5, worried about how this exact thing will manifest for him
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What episode is this from??
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I think Mak has a homophobic dad . Sorry I am saying this cause I saw it in some of maks tik toks . ā¤ā¤ā¤
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@XenoTUF
7 months ago
You don't realize what repression does until you react totally inappropriately to an emotional situation
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