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Everything Interups Me 🧠✨
Ever feel like you're always busy, even when you look like you're doing nothing? That’s not laziness — that’s deep neurodivergent processing. As an Autistic person, I’ve realized I live in a constant state of internal analysis, observation, and pattern recognition. I’m rarely in what Annie Kotowicz calls “safe mode” — that focused space where I can fully immerse. Instead, I’m often in “flexible mode,” on alert and easily interrupted by the world around me.
Understanding this has helped me show myself more patience. It’s not that I don’t want to engage — it’s just that switching from my internal world to conversation mode takes energy. And even when I seem still, I’m often deeply mentally busy.
If you're neurodivergent and this resonates, you are so not alone. I’d love to hear what patterns you’ve noticed in yourself too — drop them in the comments.
#adhd #autisticadults #autism #autismacceptance #neurodivergent #anxietyawareness
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Never not busy. My brain never shuts off; never sleeps.
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Yes. Everything interrupts me. Including me. My thoughts are interrupted by my other thoughts.
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There’s a safe mode!!😮⁉
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I think that’s why I prefer solitude. There are fewer interruptions and distractions. Even my dogs, who are my people, make demands and have needs to be met, but I resent their interference less than I do many people. Even when I go shopping, I prefer to go by myself because then I can stay focused on what I’m shopping for.
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Heres what has actually helped me. I make sure I schedule "thinking time" to not be interrupted. I shut off my phone and play music. I get into the music and write, draw, paint or am creative in some way that is mindless. That gives my brain the mental break it needs from "figuring things out" i get to be creative which calms my nervous system and if i do that an hour or 3 everyday, then when I am in work mode, and people ask questions, I'm not as startled and frustrated because my body is actually less tense. Sounds weird but works. Allow yourself time to slow down and let your mind wander. It does wonders for everything else. ❤
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Yes! I realize it was a problem with my relationship, because I felt that my spouse was "always interrupting me". But then I realized I'm always doing something - it's not her fault, she can't not interrupt. Being aware of this has helped us interact better.
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Exactly!!! That's it. I'm only releaxed and able to be in my own zone when I'm 200% sure my door is locked and NOBODY will ring the doorbell. Otherwise I'm on standby for other people needs. It's difficult to enjoy company when you are geared like that.
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A brilliant parenting educator once taught me that 15 min of your total (hyper) focus on you child ie totally entering their world is SO INCREDIBLY validating for a child that he/she will then be content for the next 2-4 hours depending on their age. My husband and I are AuDHD and we found it works for our marriage. I need 15 -30 min of his total hyperfocus each day to feel like we’re connected. I need it or I start to crumble. So we schedule it. The thing to remember is that 8 hrs of parallel play where we are in the same basic space but focused on our own projects is exactly zero minutes of connection in a marriage of two auDHD people. It simply does not count as being together since we may as well be 3,000 miles apart.
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Thank you for sharing this. It makes sense why I can't relax unless I know that I am and will be alone. But when I was in deep burnout even being alone didn't let me rest my brain. Body constantly in frozen state, brain in full on battle.
I realised that I really wanted to hear what you were saying but had to listen 6+ times because I was looking at you talking.
Just catched myself from apologising for prattling away. 🐛
Also thank you for an older video about saying to people:' I can't answer right now, I'll get back to you.' It has given me so much space to process. Have a great day
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This, 100%. As a composer and musician I imagine carrying around one of those "on air" signs you see in studios when a recording session is on would be really helpful to let people know if I can be interrupted. It'd have to turn on by itself though which is a bit too much to ask lol
24 | 2
I relate to this so hard. I've always felt like it makes me a bit snappy, but I've definitely gotten a much better grip of my outbursts now that I understand why it happens
34 | 0
… and yes everything interrupts me. Thank you for articulating my feelings. 😁
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I used to work in a cubicle with low enough walls to just see over when sitting. I didn’t know I am AuDHD. I couldn’t do my job effectively enough and was pressured to quit. I did, but only because I got diagnosed with ME/CFS (myalgic encephalomyelitis/chronic fatigue syndrome).
The only reason I discovered I’m Autistic was because I had the same problems as my son, who seemed to be obviously autistic to both his father and me.
I’m still trying to figure out who I am, and when to unmask. You were one of the YouTubers that I watched. Some of your struggles are mine, and it reinforced my confidence that I am autistic.
I’m so glad you’re here, helping us navigate through the mess that is late diagnosed autism. Then there’s ADHD to add to that! 🥵
All this to say that yes, I feel the same way, and I lost my job because I couldn’t handle the interruptions. I was an Administrative Assistant, so my job was meant for interruptions.
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I felt some real validation in hearing you talk about how it can seem like you're doing nothing and zoning out but you are actually very involved with your thoughts. My father called it daydreaming no matter how it was framed. I was scolded for it a lot in my youth by different authority figures. I was made to feel like I was being lazy but I feel like people don't truly understand how rich our inner lives can be. There are worlds within my mind. There's always a lot of things I'm thinking on.
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Yes, me too. I feel this way, what you've just described, every waking moment.
They can't possibly know. I mean others in the house or in the room cannot just "know" how focused and engrossed we are, like we are "elsewhere".
25 | 0
The recognition that there is never a time that I’m not interrupted has allowed me to embody more patience and grace for myself and others. Simultaneously, I have realized the frustration of knowing I will never live a life without interruption 😅
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Thanks, Taylor 💖
Same... I can't even lay on my bed without actively working on something in my head. It never occurred to me other people aren't like this
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Wow, I never looked at it that way. There is never a time when my mind isn't furiously crunching data, and a good part of the time it must look like I'm resting or something. If my eyes are closed I'm trying to shield from distraction, not nap.
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You just answered my million dollar question, which is, why do I want to stay awake all night and sleep during the day? Because I spend all day in flexible mode (distracted, exhausted, unproductive) and all night in safe mode (focused, relaxed, productive). Done.
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@tabithaalice9369
2 months ago
I think it was Tolkien who said, ‘It’s not just the interruptions, it’s the fear of interruptions’, when explaining how he felt about writing. I feel the same when trying to do things when anyone is in the house with me, my awareness is always distracted to some degree and unable to really focus
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