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RYD date created : 2023-08-15T02:20:31.683796Z
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I do it while laying down getting ready to sleep, as well. Itās like a twisted form of soothing for me. Itās so weird. And when I finally thought to type it into the YouTube search bar and found so many videos on it like yours, it really helped me feel less alone in this. Iāve known or seen TONS of people who bite their nails with varying degrees of severity. But Iāve NEVER known or seen anyone in real life with what I suffer from AKA this. Itās so embarrassing and because Iāve never seen anyone in real life, it made me feel so alone & most importantly SO GROSS. I hate using my hands to pass off cash with a cashier/customer or give or receive changeā¦ thatās one of the number one things that give me SO MUCH anxiety because I feel those sorts of actions with a person makes them automatically zone into your hands/fingers from both sides of the encounter. I hate typing in my debit card number or typing anything on a touch screen in front of people because of the exposed feeling I get when theyāre watching me. My best friend told me that while yes, if people are around me in real life, they do tend to notice my damaged fingers, BUT theyāre not focusing in on them half as bad as I imagine they are. I guess itās just the shame that makes me believe everyone is just intensely STARING at my hands/fingers. Her words made me feel a bit better, but it definitely didnāt stop me from still having so much anxiety and at this point full on PANIC because of the belief people are silently judging me. Itās kept me in the house, more and more throughout the years. Iāve noticed I have became more and more withdrawn and seclusive due to a lot of worsening mental health symptoms but this is one that really sticks out. My irrational belief that everyone is judging my hands has held me back from so much.
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Used to do this really badly on my handsā¦ but incredibly bad on my feet. Iād literally take razors and scissors to my heel, and slice away the skin. I stopped a while backā¦ but noticed that Iāve been slipping back into that habitā¦ ive got blood dripping from all my nails (fingers and toes).
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This is what my fingers look like on a highly regular basis and it fills me with so much shame. Yet, I just cannot stop. Itās super satisfying and gratifying when I do it. Even when I bleed and cause myself so much pain that I canāt even bend my fingers. The skin canāt even stretch like normal when I bend them so it HURTS so badly. Yetā¦. I keep fucking doing it. I just wish I could stop.
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For me I seem to have several reasons why I do this. Either because Iām nervous, the dead skin bothers me because it feels like an imperfection and I feel like I need to peel it off, or Iām hungry/snacking but I either have nothing to eat or donāt need the extra calories. For awhile, I vaped as a substitute for the oral fixation part of it and it worked for awhile. Putting on pretty nails also kinda helped because I wanted my hands to look nice, so I tried to stop when I looked at them.
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Could you wear cotton gloves overnight. You could perhaps put healing cream on too. (Or perhaps you have tried). The ultimate answer is to calm your nervous system...which I'm sure you already do....but its easier said than done. Could you try tapping about it. Try and get to what triggers you maybe.
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@Raine_without_the_v
6 months ago
Same bestie
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