solo therapy
185 videos • 17 views • by Ben_Jay
talking to myself (on camera) to try and cope with this world
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Have tea with me, for therapy… (session 184)
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Have tea with me, in autistic burnout… (session 183)
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On the cost of (suspected) implicit communication… (session 182)
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ramblin’ on! (session 181)
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… oh and i’ve graduated. (session 180)
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8e adult! (session 179)
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…before the eggs are laid! (session 178)
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…other waffling! (session 177)
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…though I “know”, I should NOT! (session 176)
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… having “good” little laughs! (session 175)
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…update and general life! (session 174)
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… ‘cos they may sue you! (session 173)
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And what IF I am NOT? (session 173)
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… Inexcusable! (session 172)
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steady cruisin’… (session 171)
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…and i can’t even meet that! (session 170)
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I trust people, I do not know… (session 169)
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… great success! (session 168)
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… on giving up one’s privileges! (session 167)
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…built different! (session 166)
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…compromise its works quality! (session 165)
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Adul7! (session 164)
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arbitrary rule enforcement… (session 163)
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Writing away… (session 162)
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…different pleasures! (session 161)
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… so takesies backsies should equate to self-unalivement (session 160)
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[rant] If rules are NOT enforced… (session 159)
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Things one don’t wanna gotta’ve do… (session 158)
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…in the right way! [for me] (session 157)
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…or I mightn’t 🤷🏼♂️ (session 156)
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…Destiny? (session 155)
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The call of the void! (session 154)
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To 6e adult! (session 153)
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…act the part, will ya!? (session 152)
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A mind constipated w4ffle! (session 151)
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My name is Ben… (session 150)
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A happy little oupsie… (session 148)
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…in all the wrong ways! (session 147)
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…for my appointment to not show! (session 146)
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a mixed bag! (session 145)
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I expect nothing… (session 144)
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not all are bad… (session 143)
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…that's it! (session 142)
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attempting improving my pen(-hu-)manship! (session 141)
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NO! I do NOT agree… (session 140)
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…the societally expected kind! (session 139)
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A waffling man 3! (session 138)
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f*ck subtlety! (session 137)
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49
2 continue 2 Waffle! (session 136)
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Waffling on[e]! (session 135)
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…just fact! (session 134)
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D3nse (session 133)
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Adult5 (session 132)
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a lot on my plate! (session 131)
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…2 handle! (session 130)
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The light at the end of the tunnel… (session 129)
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guiding the feds…, kinda?! (session 128)
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A dense 1! (session 127)
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Am I setting the bar too high?! (session 126)
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60
F*ck Gatekeeping! (session 125)
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61
…leaving the comfort zone! (session 124)
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It wasn’t the end of the world?! (session 123)
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Quality of life improvements (session 122)
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not having to make life more difficult! (session 121)
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Normies have standards, too (session 120)
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dreams and ambitions (session 119)
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a title! (session 118)
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I haven’t the energy to. (session 117)
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69
…a fear of bureaucracy! (session 116)
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on the stuff that makes us civil! (session 115)
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I must! (session 114)
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I * broke the law! (session 113)
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even though I am autistic! (session 112)
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An autist went to the shops… (session 111)
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BUGSLAUGHTER (session 110)
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adding to Pain! (session 109)
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Is this the solution? (session 108.1)
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(un-)professionals not fluent in their first language?(session 108.0)
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Worried (session 107)
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I need to think! (session 106)
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I am my own entertainer! (session 105)
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82
life-shortening on credit! (session 104)
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83
Autism gateway! (session 103)
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84
pseudo-LIMBO days (session 102)
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Grass, now legal! a culture shift? O_o(session 101)
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86
at a loss for words (session 100)
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87
the regular, and eating myself (session 99)
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This one will pass, too! (session 98)
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89
who is to blame? (session 97)
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90
fingers crossed, Daumen gedrückt (session 96 ¡ǝɔıu)
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4dulting (session 95)
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on rotten people and their spoiling of bunches (session 94)
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93
maintaining relations with incompetent service providers! (session 93)
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discriminatory police practice (session 92)
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taking bribes, for brownie points! (session 91)
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96
Broken flow :( (session 90)
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a letter can not contain this! (session 89)
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overcoming gravity! (session 88)
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99
another one/regular update (session 87)
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Commitment issues (session 86)
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101
Watch this! O_o (session 85)
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Doing it right! (session 84)
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103
Dinner in a Bottle! (session 83)
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cruising in my 1 2 (session 82)
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105
Multi-annual migration (session 81)
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106
a li’ll two (session 80)
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107
the pursuit of knowledge [and skills] (session 79)
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108
3 to adult (session 78)
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109
GOOD NEWS! (session 76)
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110
I’ve cracked a code of the human experience! (session 75)
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111
Some things end before they could start! (session 74)
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112
2 adult (session 73)
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113
This too, will end! (session 72)
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114
Learning to take what I’m given (session 71)
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115
a foot in the door (session 70)
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116
self forgiveness (session 69; nice!)
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117
we need an autistic revolution! (session 68)
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explicitly direct (session 67)
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119
a li’ll one (session 66)
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120
I can’t even anymore (session 65)
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Progress, what is that? (session 64)
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122
Helping others is not sustainable! try’n do it anyways! (session 63)
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123
off-roading hyper-cars(session 62)
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124
Dead man walkin’ (session 61)
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adulting (session 60)
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The pursuit of wisdom (session 59)
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127
Autism (ASD) in TV; childhood traumas (session 58)
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128
I ain’t that great (session 57)
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129
visiting the person I have yet to forgive (session 56)
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Best i can do, MEDIOCRACY! (session 55)
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I love you! (session 54)
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132
What’s the future ahead of me? (session 53)
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committing to life, not by choice! (session 52)
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charity for the more fortunate? (session 51)
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Recovery from Autism, is it possible? (session 50)
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136
Why do I even try, though hope is thin? (session 49)
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Am I NOT racist, BECAUSE I’m AUTISTIC? (session 48)
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we have to CITE MS-Word?! (session 47)
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139
I should stop thinking! (session 46)
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140
Acting PSYCHO in life… (session 45)
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141
Substance abuse can help! (session 44)
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142
I shot a (-n AR) panda… (session 43)
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do I have a future? (session 42)
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Rage, Rage… (session 41)
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I am the root of all evil! (session 40)
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I am crazy? (session 39)
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only uphill from here… (session 38)
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init. session 00
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