02:13

Three Years feels like yesterday

01:58

Covid19 Forth of July full video

06:33

Happy Anniversary (first time John said yes to me)

05:16

Looking For You Even More

01:59

Hospitals and death

01:38

John's birthday 2020

01:13

Anniversary winter solstice 2019

01:47

John's Birthday 2019

02:24

Anniversary of John's Death

01:13

June 17 Portland Oregon gay pride day

12:17

Grace Help Hope Memories, and Loneliness

04:01

Memorial Bronze Finnaly Placed

04:47

Small Things Make me Panic

08:04

May Day

01:35

John Would Love This Place

16:20

Cancer is a Scourge, All Life is Connected

09:08

I miss you so very much, laurel and cherry blossoms for John

08:02

Completed

03:31

Finished Gift for my Husband Who Died Recently

02:51

Cold Windy Easter Alone

20:16

Some Sleepless Nights, I've heard those words "Someone you love more than life itself has cancer".

17:43

I Panicked, Bad Feeling, My Deceased Husband Telling me to Be Careful

26:11

Most Books on Grief Feel Irrelevant to This LGBTQ Widower, Zero Overnight Guests.

14:27

Trying to Stop Falling

04:30

Sunset at Our Gravesite. Falling Backwards

03:38

Not Every Day Feels Forward Looking

19:02

An Anniversary Gift for my Deceased Husband John

01:32

Forgot to Upload, Maybe Grief Confuses Everyone

01:31

Up All Night Asking my Husband for Guidance (finished four pieces of furniture finally)

07:23

Three Kisses for John, A Record Night & the Who I Pray to Avoid Becoming

07:59

I'm Done

02:11

Elusive Progress, Sleep, and Snow yet Blessed

01:22

May John Please Watch Over Our Pen Pals as they Travel Home

17:41

Thinking of Others, Attempting to Concentrate, & Physical Reminders are Everywhere

07:42

My Sweet Lovely Pen Pal had a Small Stroke

06:44

My Sweet Mother In-Law, Medical Debt, Gratefulness,& Longing

31:28

2nd part I Want to be Wrong, Death, Grief, Vulnerability, and Opportunists

09:56

Tango Grief Vulnerability and Opportunists

05:49

Missing You Early on Valentine's Day & No Fight Left in Me

19:02

Rituals Becoming More Comforting Since my Husband's Death

09:43

Together, John and Dave Made One

04:33

John's Kitchen, Broken Heart, Broken Man

06:22

Another Difficult Day Being a Widower

08:10

Restore Things, Again Wishing we could Restore People

29:28

February 6, 2018 Ramble, Visitations Grief Design and Dead People's Things

15:56

He Came To Me, Still Connected

03:53

John's side of the bed, February 3, 2018

05:07

Anniversary Of Second Time My Husband Married Me

04:50

Blue Moon

01:24

My husband's first birthday since he died

02:05

Missing my husband Johnny on his birthday

02:26

John's Birthday and favorite quote

04:10

Set back

05:55

Precious things can be brought back but not precious people.

03:50

I miss my husband John's bravery

03:12

Up all night with grief

02:59

Difficult long day alone in our studio

05:33

Grief, Confusion, Who is consoling who and why I fear our local grocery now

04:59

Anniversary of Women's March

32:04

Hopeful Start