The Lord loves you deeply and wants you to come as you are, so please repent before it's too late. Jesus died for you on the cross, His blood makes you forgiven. (Matthew 20:28, John 3:16, I Corinthians 15:3, Matthew 25:13.) You are worth living, and if you're seeing this right now, that means you're on this Earth for a reason. You are loved and will be regardless of what choice you make. I wish you a hopeful life. I hope you find your God-given purpose and what your heart is truly searching for. - :-)