I thought I had nothing left to live for and then I thought back for a time I was happy and I've never felt more alive then at a show so I got out and started living my life and doing whatever I want! I figured out everyone dies, not everyone really lives! Having concerts to look forward to gives me something to take my mind off the thoughts bi-polar 1 causes me to have. My mental problems leave me very alone. I spend most of the time completely alone because I walk the left hand path. concerts connect me with a world otherwise not understandable to me. It's the only place I truly feel alive and completely normal. I know no one ever reads this anyway