Everyone has a calling in this life, and mine is making music. But even to do what you want to do might be challenging and not always possible, that's why it is "the life", a mixture of good and bad. I was in the shadows and waiting for my time to come as The Rasmus mentioned in their songs. And still didn't reach my prime time yet but at least the shadows that I'm waiting in are not darker as much as before. Everything is included in destiny and my time will come one day. That's what I know.