I will look for you in every lifetime, until we finally stay.
To Dad, my bundle of Joy
I have erred and went astray,
fallen with everything going blurry.
I do not know how to be saved.
I do not wish to be a burden.
Despite the horror that I am,
with this fragile heart of yours I mishandled,
I shall love you,
no matter how imperfect it appears to you
with my deepest remorse and grievances,
from afar,
beyond your doubts & my failure ,
beyond the hurt and hate I brought,
beyond this present reality of shackling social restrictions,
beyond the fading memories that I fear you have let go,
for every sun's ray touching my face,
for every rain drop reflecting our memories,
for every glorious sun setting from the horizon,
for all the brightest full moon shining on your darkest nights,
wherever you are and will be,
I cannot, should not and will not forget,
I will remember every single day.
and so I will love you
until the end of my time,
for I only have this short transient lifetime.