23:17

Solitude/ headache/ loss/ adjusting ??

23:51

Father’s Day / Msa/ loss/ feeling not great / scared

00:40

Last video until I create “ more space “

23:51

Insomnia / widow/ feverish/ exhaustion /msa

24:38

Legacy/ widow/ letter of love / missing him

43:20

Widow wisdom/ benzo info/ moving into Life / forgiveness

07:45

15 wks/ loss / not feeling well/ but . Time to move forward ❤️😊

19:18

Drawing a boundary / son/ loss/ don’t feel well / kitten ???

20:15

Dreaming / dream with me / tv relocate / better eating

14:21

4 yrs plus of his illness / my home / opening up my heart / moving forward

21:58

Mourning the living ?/ loss/ trust / questions / frustrations /

26:55

Loss/answering comments / widow

04:02

We can do this … together / facing the world / together

24:36

Week 14 / the who am I stage I guess / Alone

18:24

2 am - losing myself and my marbles / loss and grief / confused and just a tad lost

10:26

I canceled therapy / I’m done with it

13:40

Loss of partner touch / grief/ Msa/ widow /

15:41

What I wished I had done / regrets / widow / Msa / alone

21:43

Gem art / solo shopping / saw sky in a white orb / he stays close to me 😀

23:24

Yes , you are welcome / finding my way in life / senior / solo / getting it done

03:10

Super mini grocery run .. $54 🤪

27:11

Memories and the time it takes to move on from loss / or not

18:41

I slept the afternoon away/ loss/ depression

27:06

Letting go / loss/ tough day / 13 weeks a widow / lavender warm bath

23:17

3 months gone today / loss/ taking care of his memory / self care

16:43

Ashes placed/ taking walks/ eating healthy / trying to live my life / penny turtle

23:05

I don’t know how to do this widow thing…

29:55

12 wks a widow/ talk with my Sensei / a surprise gift !

20:15

Rest day / benzo taper/ loss / Msa/ grief

14:01

Rollercoaster of emotions day / grief / Msa/ loss

24:22

Loss/ cremation / slow move forward / anniversary

29:19

Dr visit/ loss/ tears / turtles / bursitis / migraines

08:34

Anxiety and store run/ therapy was a cry fest

09:58

I need a manual on death and loss

14:05

The loss meltdown / they say it’s ok to cry

23:30

Free phone/ diamond art / my podcast 😀/ missing the man … so much

37:31

All things widow / plus other random knowledge /

33:38

Flowers/ no show nurse/ grief tears/ terribly sad

26:34

Moving forward after loss /msa/ widow

11:04

I don’t miss him - I miss US 🥹

30:59

Can we normalize death? / Msa/ loss/ widow

28:43

My heart broke / Msa/ loss/ missing him /

18:24

It’s a tad rough today / Msa/ loss/ tears/ gone

26:00

9 weeks/ Msa/ widow/ the one left behind

17:13

He sent a snake sign /ashes/ widow/ Msa

17:08

Living in the future does me no good / I need the memories / loss / Msa

03:25

Gone 2 months / not feeling well / Msa/

22:08

Changes / widow/ the one left behind/ Msa/

03:42

My evening/ night time routine / loss/ death /msa

26:30

Meditation/ exercise/ prayer / Msa/ death

11:24

Trying to find a normal / making a change

12:40

8 weeks gone / loss/ Msa/

20:32

Part 2 - I wasn’t ready / death / Msa/ alone /left behind

09:56

I wasn’t prepared for his death/ even with all the knowledge ( part 1)

09:53

His space / mr squirrel / zen altar / widowhood / missing him

11:30

Feeling a bit better / missing sky so much in the evenings

10:54

Widow/ have a plan A and plan B when your sick / helpers ?/ urgent care / 911? Which one ?

08:27

Day2 the one left behind / no one to help me when I’m ill

14:18

Not feeling so good ~ sometimes rest is best

27:28

Day 1 - Widow: The one left over