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I'm Ken. I talk about music, creativity, productivity, consc


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in the future - u will be able to do some more stuff here,,,!! like pat catgirl- i mean um yeah... for now u can only see others's posts :c

forever.procrastinating
Posted 3 hours ago

Hey friends,
I just want to say; if any of my words, posts & content here ever come off as too much or even triggering, I really apologize. None of it is directed at anyone at all. I’m fully aware that what I say can feel intense or overbearing. But that’s honestly part of what this channel is about; walking that fine line between getting thrown with trash… or offering something that’s actually helpful.

I'm still learning. I’m always trying to get better — in how I speak, how I write, and how I communicate. If I ever cross a line or it’s just too much, feel free to give me honest, constructive feedback. I genuinely want to learn & check myself.

This channel’s whole point is to open up space for the tough stuff — the topics that make us feel vulnerable, raw, or exposed. I’m not trying to be some saint or guru — far from it. I’ve done some real dark shit in my life. The only reason I’m here sharing anything at all is because I feel like I owe it to life. Big time. — to give back, to help, so that maybe others don’t repeat the mistakes I’ve made.

Truth is, I started this whole thing because of one huge, irreversible mistake — something I did that I’ll never fully forgive myself for. It cost a friend's life. And now, I feel like part of my responsibility is to face that shadow head-on. To speak on it. To not let it stay buried.

So yeah, if my posts or words ever feel like ā€œtoo much,ā€ please know:
It’s never coming from a place of malice. I’m not judging you. I’m just working through my own truth out loud, and hoping it'll help even a small percentage of ppl out there.

Much love,
Ken

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forever.procrastinating
Posted 4 hours ago

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forever.procrastinating
Posted 10 hours ago

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forever.procrastinating
Posted 15 hours ago

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forever.procrastinating
Posted 15 hours ago

As usual, dont forget to celebrate small wins peeps. (ok this pint is not small)

Cheers šŸ»

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forever.procrastinating
Posted 18 hours ago

I didn't realize I switched into hyper reflective mode all day! Sorry about the sensitive posts guys! I may need to ground my self at McDonalds right now! (for real).

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forever.procrastinating
Posted 23 hours ago

A Crazy Story That Changed My Life – From a Monk in a Psych Ward

Ok, this might sound a bit woo-woo, but bear with me—because it’s something that impacted me massively.

About 10 years ago, I was going through a rough period. I’d been through psychiatrists, therapists, and psychologists. I’d been labeled with a bunch of mental health disorders and prescribed meds that left me numb for years. To this day, I still have side effects—like blurred vision.

During that time, I was admitted to a psychiatric facility. And one day, a traveling monk from Thailand visited. He looked me dead in the eyes and said:

"You don’t have a mental illness. Your heart is just DEEPLY dark & murky." Bc of substances, resentment, disappointment, lies, lies to self, doubts, and all those good stuff.

Who tf is this guy judging me?? I was massively offended & furious! I cursed him out with every word I could think of (in my mind šŸ˜‚). But he just smiled and left.

The next day, he came back. This time, he brought me food and a simple black Swatch watch. I rejected both out of pure anger. He stayed there. But eventually, something in me cracked. My heart shattered into a million pieces.

And he just smiled again. And I took the watch and had a meal with him.

He didn’t lecture me. He didn’t preach. He just showed me—through his genuine kindness and presence—that all that pain, bitterness, and hate… it was living inside me. I wasn’t broken. I was blindly projecting. I was just carrying too much darkness in my heart. It was heavily calcified.

That moment changed everything.

Since then, I’ve been practicing what he taught me—daily, quietly and personally. Clearing the heart. It doesn’t have to be spiritual—it can be anything that helps you align your: thoughts, words, actions, and intent. But everything HAS to be aligned. It's hard! But it goes long long ways

That’s what he said before leaving back to Thailand:

ā€œThe heart is like white linen. Life will stain it. But if you regularly wash it—by aligning your thoughts, words, action, and intent—you keep it clear.ā€

I still f*ck up. Big time. But my heart feels light. Even through the darkest of days. That monk’s kindness saved me more than any medication ever did. I haven’t needed meds or therapy in over 10 years. And I’m not saying that’s everyone’s path—but it was mine. My healing wasn’t just about the mind. It was about the Heart.

I still wear the same watch he gave me. (It's worn out!)

(PS: This story is just something that happened to me and changed me. If it resonates, that’s beautiful. If it doesn’t, that’s totally cool. Sending out positive vibesšŸ–¤āœŒļø)

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forever.procrastinating
Posted 1 day ago

"Highwayman," written by Jimmy Webb,Ā explores the idea of one soul taking on multiple lives and experiences throughout history.Ā The song follows the same spirit as a highwayman, a sailor, a Hoover Dam worker, and, a captain of a starship, and finally a drop of water, highlighting the cyclical nature of life and the enduring spirit of humanity."

Absolutely beautiful song & lyrics. This one's my favorite versionĀ 

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forever.procrastinating
Posted 1 day ago

Ok looks like I'm going though another dark night of the soul. I think this is the 3rd time. No wonder the energetic flactuatuations are like crazy..

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forever.procrastinating
Posted 1 day ago

I used to have this as a ringtone way back. My friends would laugh at me šŸ˜‚

It's still a lovely tune though

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