Jeonversephile

Jeonversephile
Posted 2 months ago

Hey there...I am writing part 2 of heartless here. Sorry but I am not able to edit a video

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Jungkook walked inside the living area with a big smile on his face. He couldn't wait to share his results with his parents. He got 94 percent in his half yearly exams and he was sure that this time his parents will be proud of him.

Since last one month he had been completely ignoring his own health, walking up late nights and usually getting a sleep of maximum three hours.

During the day, he attended his school and took exams, then he'd go for his training at the company. His schedule was almost packed, yet he never stopped visiting you, taking you to the doctor and spending some good time with you.

Although the abuse from his parents still continues to happen, he knows that he has responsibilities to fulfil. And today, there were no bounds to his happiness.

Finally, he will be able to see the proud look in their eyes for him. He worked so hard for these marks and now he can't stop his tears from falling.

It felt like his hard work paid off, after a very long time. He felt a hope in his heart that maybe…maybe his parents will love him.

His mother walked out of the kitchen and entered the living room. She was quite surprised to see him like this.

J/m: What happened? Why are you crying?

Jungkook flinched upon hearing her voice and wiped his tears with the back of his hand.

Jungkook: Mom, I got my results.

He flashed a cute smile while she frowned. However, there was a gleam of excitement and anticipation in her eyes. She could see the expression of happiness on Jungkook's face and it made her wonder if he scored well this time.

He handed her his reports and she thoroughly checked through it. He got A’s in all subjects, but her brows knitted after noticing his marks.

J/m: 94 Percent only? You haven't scored full marks in any of the subjects.

She threw them on the couch and Jungkook shuddered. He was absolutely taken aback by his mother's behaviour.

She didn't look proud, she didn't look happy. She was still disappointed and he felt like his world shattered.

J/m: You are good for nothing.

She left, leaving a broken mess behind. Jungkook couldn't believe what he heard and saw. He did his best yet he couldn't satisfy her.

He tried to collect himself but it was too late. He has lost the hope to be the son they want him to be. He can't match their expectations. He can't live like this.

He doesn't have a value in anyone's life, so what's the point of living? Tears never stopped rolling down his cheeks as he blankly stared at the floor.

Thousands of thoughts were running in his mind and all of them were awful.

Jungkook: No, no, no! Jungkook no! Not now, at least not now. You need to be strong for some more days..She needs you. Y/n needs you, don't think of doing something stupid.

He reprimanded himself and wiped his tears away.

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Next day

Jungkook made his way inside the office room and the CEO, Mr Lee stared at him coldly.

Mr Lee: What brings you here? You should have been practising now.

Jungkook: Good afternoon PD nim. I know I should have been practising but I am in need of serious help and other than you, I can't ask anyone.

Mr Lee raised his brow. He inhaled a sharp breath before saying.

Mr Lee: Listen Jungkook, I have already helped you a lot. I personally scouted you and then broke the rules to make your debut. We don't let trainees stay at their homes but I have given you many privileges. And not leaving your home is just one of them. What more can you demand? Isn't it enough?

Jungkook braced himself for the conversation which had to take place. He needs to get through this. He has to be strong..for you!

Jungkook: I know PD nim, and I am grateful for all your help. But I promise, this will be the last time I am asking for a favour. Please, it's serious..I desperately need your help.

His tone shifted drastically. He tried to be normal but it turned heavier and Messier by every word he spoke. He knows that it will be hard. It will be really hard for him to stop his overflowing emotions but he can't let anyone see him vulnerable.

Mr Lee: If you insist so much then fine, tell me what it is.

Mr Lee sighed, he can't ignore Jungkook's requests no matter what. He was a gem and he knew it, he wanted him to debut and make it big. It included his own profit but either way, he cared for Jungkook and his well being.

Jungkook: I have a friend. She is having severe heart disease. She might need immediate transplantation soon but we can't afford it. I need your help PD nim. Will you help us? Please, don't say no. I beg you..Save her life.

Mr Lee’s face paled. Never in his dreams did he think that Jungkook would be sharing something like this with him.

Mr Lee: Do you even know how much money is needed for a heart transplant? And you want me to waste it on your friend whom I don't even know? This is not gonna happen..Never! You can leave now. I am not here to entertain your personal interests.

Tears Welled up in Jungkook's eyes hearing his words. Somewhere, he already knew that this would happen. He was asking too much but he would do anything for it.

Jungkook: Please Mr Lee..Just do this one favour for me. You won't see my face after that. I beg you!

He pleaded but Mr Lee had already made up his mind to not give in.

Mr Lee: It's of no use. Go and practise your vocals or dance.

Jungkook fell on his knees. He will be damned if he can't save you. He spoke while adjoining his hands.

Jungkook: I…P-please. Save her life. You are my last hope. Don't dismiss me like this. It's a question of someone's life. You do a lot of charity, then why can't you help us too? We need it PD nim. I want to see her doing well. Don't ignore my pleas.

Mr Lee sighed, his knuckles turning white as he looked at the broken guy in front of him. He stood up, and made his way to the exit.

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Y/n: That CEO really agreed?

You asked and he nodded. Well, you didn't expect it at all. You can't believe that Jungkook really went to such lengths to help you. And the CEO really did agree. It all seemed so impossible.

Jungkook: He denied but thankfully his wife arrived at the same time with his lunch. She overheard our conversation and promised to help us.

You hummed. Well, no loving husband can go against his wife's words. You could see the tense lines forming on Jungkook's forehead as you both walked in the park.

You wanted to hold his hand but you were hesitant. After battling inside your mind for some good minutes, you collected all the courage to make the move.

You touched his hand, your fingers brushing against each other. Jungkook felt like his breath got stuck. The feel of your skin against his, felt heavenly blissful.

Not sensing any discomfort from his side, you finally intertwined your hand with his. A low and satisfying hum escaped his lips which you didn't fail to hear.

Your heart was doing somersaults in your ribcage. Walking hand in hand with your crush, this feeling is just out of the world. And that crush happens to be your friend who is willing to do everything for you.

You wondered if there was something possible between you and him. He makes you feel special and you want to do it for him too. But provided your current condition, you can't.

The chances of your survival are very low.

You are relaxed that the expenses of the surgery have already been taken care of. But now the main question arises. When will you get a donor?

And let's suppose, you get a donor. Then it doesn't guarantee that the surgery will be successful. There are chances of failures.

You don't want to give Jungkook any false hopes. You don't want to leave him after making him feel special. That would be so cruel, so inhumane and illogical.

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It’s been months since the hospital was trying to find a donor but they couldn’t find one. Jungkook was really stressed. He knows that finding a heart donor is a difficult task.

It needs legal work too and most of the people die being unaware of it. So it was not easy to find someone who has volunteered to donate his heart after death.

Your health was deteriorating slowly, you were now beginning to feel pain in your chest as some of your heart muscles have died. You had a heart attack once already and now transplantation has become an inevitable need.

You had lost hope of living and so did Jungkook. But all these months, none of you confessed your true feelings for each other.

Jungkook’s parents were being more cruel to him once they found out that he has a female friend who happens to be you. The abuse continued, mental and physical. Nevertheless, he always remained in contact with you by SNS, even though you couldn’t meet physically.

But honestly, he was tired of everything. Tired of his parents, tired of his fate and tired of his weakness. Many times he tried to commit suicide, but the thought of you always managed to pull him out of it.

He was determined to give you a new life before ending his own. This is the only thing that keeps him going.

There’s a nurse who always stays with you and helps you whenever you need. You don’t need her, but since you have no one who can look after you, Jungkook forced you to keep her close.

However, everything changes the day when the nurse tells you that finally you’ve got a donor. You were really happy. You wanted to tell this to Jungkook but the nurse didn’t let you, saying that he will come to the hospital directly and now you have to reach there fast.

The surgery turned out to be successful. The CEO and his wife were there with you all the time. However, there was one person whom you wanted to see but he never came.

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Jeonversephile
Posted 3 months ago

Hi Ajkians!

I know what I am going to say now, will hurt you..a little bit maybe!

I have decided to QUIT YOUTUBE!!

I know You are disappointed and I apologise for breaking your hearts like this.

Thank you for all the love and support which I received here. And if you ask me the reasons for this decision then it's gonna be a long list; they won't end.

If I were to conclude, then the main reasons are self-doubt, decreased support on this platform, inferiority complex, real life failures and struggles, psychological pressure! And lack of time and motivation, of course.

And also I want to focus on Wattpad only, I don't have expectations there so I feel like I would do my best..While on the other hand, on youtube, I once enjoyed immense support which I don't get now..so it has made me feel like I do not write good.

A few subscribers told me initially that I do not write like I used to do on my first channel. And suddenly all of it makes sense now.

You won't trust me but I had many series buckled up for YouTube. I would list some of them here with a description.

•Heir:- Royal au, Jungkook uses Y/n as a means to get heir while Y/n has her own wishes getting fulfilled.

•Jeon's Obsession S2 :- A twisted story with Y/n and Jungkook's grown up kids.

•The Destiny of her silence :- FML is mute while MML is in already love with someone whom he met in his dreams.

•The guy she never noticed :- She is a model and she never noticed the actor who falls in love with her.

•Thirty days of Love :- Rich girl attends a function in countryside and falls in love with her grandmother's caregiver.

•The black Prince :- Royal Au, she is the third wife of ruthless crown prince.

•Mr Virgin :- Indo-korean love story, where the male lead is obsessed with his virginity

•His little temptress :- College romance

•Insanely yours

•Tempted to hate

.............................................And many more!!

I don't know why am I writing about these stories now..But I seriously wanted to write all of them, a few of these will be written on Wattpad...either as fanfictions or as pure Fictional books!

However, I had the urge to write them on youtube but as time is scarce, I can't do that...

It's been six days that I uploaded that oneshot and yet I haven't started its second part...At some point, I am disappointed with myself too.

I feel like writing oneshots is not my thing anymore, I am not able to explain everything I want to in a single or two videos. But I don't have the time to edit a series for YouThbe either.

It seems like I am stuck from all sides and the only way is to not continue anymore..

This would be my last community post and I genuinely thank those who supported me all this while...I guess, that's all...

That's all I wanted to say, and I love you a lot. I am glad that I built a really healthy community on my channel, thanks to all of you...You guys are so amazing for that ❤️

However, the person behind this channel is somehow messed up and she can't really keep up with so many things...Hence, she has decided to completely quit YouTube while she will be available on Wattpad and Instagram.

Wattpad or Instagram ID :- Jeonversephile

Thank you so much!!

Bye 🫂 Have a good day ahead.

My best wishes are with you ✨

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Jeonversephile
Posted 3 months ago

Shame on those who fantasize and romanticise rape. For once, just look in the society and see what's happening to the girls out there. Yeah that's the actual shit you are promoting. And shame on those readers who support and consume such content!

Everyday we hope for justice for the rape victims and here these so called grown ups are so obsessed with a rapist male lead...And not to mention those nibbis which get influenced by them.

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Jeonversephile
Posted 3 months ago

Part 5 of Renegade is out. Vote, share and comment ☺️

www.wattpad.com/story/371845472?utm_source=android…

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Jeonversephile
Posted 3 months ago

How can a student protest turn into persecution and violence against a minority group?

Why the hell are these people not stopping even after Sheikh Haseena's resignation?

I got to know that a Hindu singer's house was burnt, an Hindu artist was burnt alive..Iskcon temples, and many other Godess Kali temples have been vandalised and burnt. More than 200 such cases have been reported in a day. And God knows how many are waiting to get reported. Nah, this can't be a student protest, it can never be...

Students in India protest too but I haven't seen their protest turning violent.

There are definitely some groups active in Bangladesh which want to create unrest and use this opportunity to wipe out the Hindu community.

No matter what happens, Hindus are the ones to get targeted..In the Bangladesh liberation war 1971, the Hindu families were attacked the most by Pakistani Army and after that many riots and persecutions happened in Bangladesh against hindus.

Let's not forget the jihadis there, who are looking for a chance to eliminate hindus while hiding behind the students.

Looks like slow genocide, doesn't it? I mean there must be a good reason why hindu community is reduced from 30% to 8% in Bangladesh.

Do watch this video for more accurate information https://youtu.be/iUSxrY30_vU?si=_KaHA...

We need to raise our voice before it gets too late..HINDUS, at least wake up now!

And to all those hindus who aren't standing up for their community, always remember that Pakistan, Bangladesh and Afghanistan were once a part of India with Hindu majority...Now put yourself in the place of our Hindu ancestors who suffered the ethnic cleansing from the Islamic invaders.

If you don't speak today, then you are endangering the future of your upcoming generations. You wouldn't want them to suffer the religious extremism the way the Bangladeshi Hindus are suffering, I think so.

Kashmir is the origin of the Shaivism sect of Sanatan dharma, it was once hindu majority but see, what happened to Kashmiri pandits?

#Alleyesonbangladeshihindus

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Jeonversephile
Posted 3 months ago

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Oddly...we all feel thrilled to explore the wrongs. It attracts us, the wrong and forbidden things.. We get attracted to the negatives which makes us turn a blind eye to all the good things.

It's quite an irony that we yearn and beg to be happy and when we pray we ask for something which is good for us. But on the other hand, we turn our back to them and chase the wrongs.

It's quite complicated, very much... This is what I think, what I feel.. Everyday it feels like we are getting more and more complicated. Why do the negatives attract us so much? I keep on saying to focus on good but I myself can't act on it.

It is a clear cut hypocrisy.. I'm not able to act on my words. The toxic traits of mine are ready to bite once given a chance, I do my best to get a hold on them, to suppress them, to discard them.

I criticise certain types of stories but I often end up clicking on them. Why is that so? I ignore them a lot of times, but a few times I still click on them despite knowing that my mood is gonna get ruined.

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To the person from the second slide~

It's okay, it's quite normal to feel like this. And this fear is good but only if it encourages you to work harder and improve yourself. But getting depressed over these things is a big NO!!! You are doing great, we all feel like that...we all feel low at certain points but that doesn't mean you are depressed. Keep repeating this thing in your mind that "I AM NOT DEPRESSED" Remind your brain that you are not depressed, do it multiple times..And every morning when you wake up, just look into the mirror and say "I AM VERY BRILLIANT, AND I AM GRATEFUL TO MYSELF.." Do it multiple times... Don't let your subconscious mind play with you, instead you gotta play your subconscious mind.

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Now, to my hindu fellows "HAPPY HARIYALI TEEJ" ❤️✨ Let's remember the divine love of Mata Parvati and Mahadev, for whose reunion this festival is celebrated. This is the day when Mahadev accepted Mata parvati's love. Enjoy the day and have fun :)

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About me!!

I realised that I was focussing on the wrongs and negatives while ignoring the positive aspects. But I'm quite contented to see the number of people left, which means I've successfully filtered out the toxicity out of here. I may act grumpy and moody, but I can't help it. I try to focus on the good but I also get attracted to the negatives.

Ajkians??? Where are you? Let's assemble in the comments section.