06:27
On my two boys suicides, second video. Guilt and light.
05:05
Talking about the suicide of both my sons.
12:41
What if death was not as bad as we thought?
14:14
Notes from a death bed
13:53
Choosing Forgiveness after an overdose/suicide death.
09:04
Lessons. What is a mother if her son cannot survive? And decluttering.
15:38
I can't find happy memories of Costya at the moment, though I know they are there.
13:36
In a holding bay. Letting the sadness of loss happen.
15:41
Finding the body of my son Costya
07:58
Thinking today of the death of my son Costya.
01:55
Antonia Rolls
12:22
Ian. Warrior. Forty years an alcoholic, eleven sober, living can be tough.
27:34
Ian, living past addiction.
30:03
Marie, her cancer and upcoming mastectomy. How to remain positive.
22:02
Talking to Claire about how she lives with the idea of death.
06:05
Painting EveryAddict as a Pieta from the Christian story
10:33
Professor David Nutt and the exhibition on Addiction and Addicts
22:55
Vanessa and her friendship with a crack cocaine addict
07:03
What to do? Day one back in the studio.
00:56
Addiction, love, choices and an exhibition of paintings words and photos
01:43
Paintings of addiction. Portraits and stories of addicts and those who love an addict. (And we do).
09:13
Claire's hand made silver earrings modeled after fashion, in the studio
08:31
The Convid Chronicles, a new spoof tabloid ...
06:29
As Mother Lay Dying. A powerful and loving tapestry woven of memories and insights from the bedside.
02:04
Stay safe. Yep.
13:20
Not good to embrace a pathological mistrust of each other
14:56
Understanding The Dying Process Using The Four Elements | Antonia Rolls
22:04
Painting Studio Tour 2020: Have A Look Inside My Painting Studio At The Work I'm Currently Doing
11:56
Is Giving Better Than Receiving? Am I Good Enough?
02:05
Welcome to my channel
12:04
A Visit To A Local Doctor's Surgery In These Paranoid Times | Antonia Rolls
13:08
Four Tips To Support The Dying | Antonia Rolls
04:19
Turning On The Light: The You Behind Your Mind | Antonia Rolls
05:09
My wedding anniversary today. A graceful dying, journey at the end of life, a tribute to my husband
12:43
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter eighteen
19:30
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter seventeen
15:57
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter sixteen
19:13
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter fifteen
23:11
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter fourteen
09:59
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter thirteen
20:37
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter twelve
31:54
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter eleven
23:21
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter ten
20:28
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter nine
29:54
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter eight
14:12
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter seven
29:49
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter six
22:32
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter five
22:53
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter four
32:59
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter three
28:38
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter two
30:05
As Mother Lay Dying, a graceful dying, journey at the end of life. Chapter one
17:21
A Funeral In Covid Times and Some Words On My Grief | Antonia Rolls
23:23
Dying Not Quite Alone in Lockdown 2020 | Antonia Rolls
21:06
A palliative care decision, a Zen Garden on scrubland and a double wedding portrait 3 years late
17:46
The story of the Whooping Angels, and more paintings for the Addiction exhibition
21:54
Welcome to the studio. Paintings on end of life and addiction
03:10
Dancing with Steve - where it all began.
03:31
Magnificent Mr Bedford's Final Journey A Love Story
01:24
Baby George's first year with Grandma
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About
Hello, and welcome. I am an artist, a writer and a speaker. Three things about me -
1. I am creative
2. I do not conform
3. I need a platform.
There is a great deal of darkness in our world, and I am constantly learning to look to the light. Life is precious, even in great darkness. I have been in my own share of darkness, as have we all.
Much of what I do is about listening; listening to stories about living, dying and all the things that make us real. I create projects on subjects that may be hard to think about, such as dying, death and addiction. Recently these came together in the death of my 29 year old son, Costya, after years of alcohol and drugs addictions.
You can see more of what I have done with the A Graceful Death and the Addicts And Those Who Love Them exhibitions on my website.
Let us turn on the light.
My website is www.antoniarolls.co.uk
My book As Mother Lay Dying, a tapestry woven of thoughts and memories at the bedside, is available from Amazon
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